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I find my self unusually happy in the day and then extremely sad. The smallest thing can make me sooo happy and likewise, the smallest thing can make my whole day turn around and throw me into a black hole.
I'm so tired of climbing out of those black holes. It seems that the minute I finally get out, I'm thrown right back in. I've tried to be strong for so long now, convincing myself that everyone goes through hard times, but I just can't seem to get out. Nothing can make me happy for longer than maybe a couple of hours, and then I'm back in the shits, inevitably.
I don't know if it's dissatisfaction with the circumstances of my life, or if it's medical. I've been hypothyroid and anemic, and I'm apparently better now, but I think I have depression. I don't know, seriously. I find I'm constantly fighting a battle with my emotions.. I don't think most ppl live this way.
Other ppl in my life notice this about me too... so I know it's not how i'm supposed to be.. but I wonder if the problem lies in how i deal with things, or whether it is some kind of chemical imbalance in my body.
Anyhow, life is getting too hard. I don't know how I can manage this for the rest of my life. I need to find a solution before I run out of mental energy. I don't know how long I can keep playing this torturous game of life.
I'm so tired of climbing out of those black holes. It seems that the minute I finally get out, I'm thrown right back in. I've tried to be strong for so long now, convincing myself that everyone goes through hard times, but I just can't seem to get out. Nothing can make me happy for longer than maybe a couple of hours, and then I'm back in the shits, inevitably.
I don't know if it's dissatisfaction with the circumstances of my life, or if it's medical. I've been hypothyroid and anemic, and I'm apparently better now, but I think I have depression. I don't know, seriously. I find I'm constantly fighting a battle with my emotions.. I don't think most ppl live this way.
Other ppl in my life notice this about me too... so I know it's not how i'm supposed to be.. but I wonder if the problem lies in how i deal with things, or whether it is some kind of chemical imbalance in my body.
Anyhow, life is getting too hard. I don't know how I can manage this for the rest of my life. I need to find a solution before I run out of mental energy. I don't know how long I can keep playing this torturous game of life.
) Family and friends would surely be a good support system, only if I had them...
