This is so uncomfortable to talk about, but I just have to.
Okay, about 3 months ago, I slept with this guy. We've had this chemistry for months, and so we went for it once. I didn't take it seriously though, kinda like a one night stand but with a friend? Something like that. So we pretty much stayed in touch ever since, but about 2 weeks ago we started talking a bit more, and basically the casual conversation went to a conversation about sex. I always liked him very much, in fact I find him to be the most handsome guy in my town. I thought to myself, if it happens again, it wouldn't be bad.. Kinda like friends with benefits. And I liked that idea. I have never done this but I didn't feel like a w---e because we're friends. So we went out a couple times, and 3 days ago we slept together again. When he got home he messaged me right away and we talked until I fell asleep. However, it was just sex. Nothing romantic.
Now the twist. He has a girlfriend... I know I know, you think I'm horrible, disgusting, and stupid. BUT! When we slept together for the first time, he told me AFTERWARDS he had a girlfriend. I told him we've known each other for months and that I didn't know.. And he said he never mentions her and stuff like that. I felt terrible automatically. And now, the second time, he told me they were taking a break and that they're breaking up constantly and that he's ready to let her go forever. He said he's bored with her, they don't have sex, she's going crazy about every little thing and stuff. And I told him I don't wanna do this while he's with her, but we did it anyway because he kept telling me he's breaking up with her. I know this doesn't make it any better but... I just wanted to clear that up. I know it was stupid and selfish of me but I couldn't help myself. I'm drawn to him so much and since we were together now I can't stop thinking about him.
I actually think I might me starting to feel something.. And that is bad. That is what I need advice on. He hasn't talked to me for 2 days now which is weird for him. I know they're still taking a break and that he doesn't love her. I don't want a relationship with him because 1.) he would cheat on me sooner or later too, and 2.) he would never want a relationship with me either.
But I just feel so many things now and I miss him and I want him again, I know it's wrong.. just tell me your opinions, but preferably don't make me feel even worse. Although I know I'm a bad person for doing this...
Okay, about 3 months ago, I slept with this guy. We've had this chemistry for months, and so we went for it once. I didn't take it seriously though, kinda like a one night stand but with a friend? Something like that. So we pretty much stayed in touch ever since, but about 2 weeks ago we started talking a bit more, and basically the casual conversation went to a conversation about sex. I always liked him very much, in fact I find him to be the most handsome guy in my town. I thought to myself, if it happens again, it wouldn't be bad.. Kinda like friends with benefits. And I liked that idea. I have never done this but I didn't feel like a w---e because we're friends. So we went out a couple times, and 3 days ago we slept together again. When he got home he messaged me right away and we talked until I fell asleep. However, it was just sex. Nothing romantic.
Now the twist. He has a girlfriend... I know I know, you think I'm horrible, disgusting, and stupid. BUT! When we slept together for the first time, he told me AFTERWARDS he had a girlfriend. I told him we've known each other for months and that I didn't know.. And he said he never mentions her and stuff like that. I felt terrible automatically. And now, the second time, he told me they were taking a break and that they're breaking up constantly and that he's ready to let her go forever. He said he's bored with her, they don't have sex, she's going crazy about every little thing and stuff. And I told him I don't wanna do this while he's with her, but we did it anyway because he kept telling me he's breaking up with her. I know this doesn't make it any better but... I just wanted to clear that up. I know it was stupid and selfish of me but I couldn't help myself. I'm drawn to him so much and since we were together now I can't stop thinking about him.
I actually think I might me starting to feel something.. And that is bad. That is what I need advice on. He hasn't talked to me for 2 days now which is weird for him. I know they're still taking a break and that he doesn't love her. I don't want a relationship with him because 1.) he would cheat on me sooner or later too, and 2.) he would never want a relationship with me either.
But I just feel so many things now and I miss him and I want him again, I know it's wrong.. just tell me your opinions, but preferably don't make me feel even worse. Although I know I'm a bad person for doing this...