Well actually I don't have one and that's the problem.
Let me explain further. I have been without a job for over six years. I am on disability. My mother suggested I go on disability when it became clear that I just kept going from job to job. So I reluctantly decided to go that route. I have been depressed and had mental issues in the past so it wasn't much of a stretch to do that. However, it became a chicken or egg kind of thing. Was I depressed because I had no job and couldn't keep one or did I have no job and couldn't keep one because I was depressed.
So these days I don't even bother trying to apply because I figure no one will hire me with my crappy track record of going from job to job. Not only that but I honestly don't remember most of the last few jobs I had. I am reluctant to do anything temporary. Also there's the factor that I have to be careful not to lose my benefits. I have a college degree but have never been able to get a job in my field because of lack of experience.
I have no idea when I will get a job but it doesn't seem like it will be any time soon. I have looked into agencies but none of the mental health ones have been able to help me. One woman is really disrespectful so I can't see myself working with her.
I have taken civil service tests but it is competitive and and I have never heard back from them(other than once about a temp job).
I have looked into online stuff but most doesn't seem legitimate.
I have no idea what to do. I am looking into volunteer work(loosely related to my field)but I don't count on that leading to a regular job.
On top of this I have pretty much no social life. I don't even bother to date because I figure no woman would be interested in a man without a job(let alone a career). Even if she did go out with me if another guy came along who did have a job I'd be tossed aside in a second. Not having a job has affected my self esteem to the point where I don't think I could be successful with the opposite sex so I figure why bother.
I basically just don't know what to do with myself and like I said before I don't apply to jobs because I don't remember my last few and just assume nobody will hire me(even though that is ultimately an assumption being the way things are I know I'd just be wasting my time for the most part and my chances are pretty low). I've had literally dozens and dozens of jobs in the past. I would not want to do some of those again(fast food for example)just for the sake of having a job. If it's not going to be significantly more than what I get now on SSD then it's not worth it. Needless to say I can't afford to pay for classes of any kind.
Any advice or suggestions that are not mean spirited or negative are welcome.
Let me explain further. I have been without a job for over six years. I am on disability. My mother suggested I go on disability when it became clear that I just kept going from job to job. So I reluctantly decided to go that route. I have been depressed and had mental issues in the past so it wasn't much of a stretch to do that. However, it became a chicken or egg kind of thing. Was I depressed because I had no job and couldn't keep one or did I have no job and couldn't keep one because I was depressed.
So these days I don't even bother trying to apply because I figure no one will hire me with my crappy track record of going from job to job. Not only that but I honestly don't remember most of the last few jobs I had. I am reluctant to do anything temporary. Also there's the factor that I have to be careful not to lose my benefits. I have a college degree but have never been able to get a job in my field because of lack of experience.
I have no idea when I will get a job but it doesn't seem like it will be any time soon. I have looked into agencies but none of the mental health ones have been able to help me. One woman is really disrespectful so I can't see myself working with her.
I have taken civil service tests but it is competitive and and I have never heard back from them(other than once about a temp job).
I have looked into online stuff but most doesn't seem legitimate.
I have no idea what to do. I am looking into volunteer work(loosely related to my field)but I don't count on that leading to a regular job.
On top of this I have pretty much no social life. I don't even bother to date because I figure no woman would be interested in a man without a job(let alone a career). Even if she did go out with me if another guy came along who did have a job I'd be tossed aside in a second. Not having a job has affected my self esteem to the point where I don't think I could be successful with the opposite sex so I figure why bother.
I basically just don't know what to do with myself and like I said before I don't apply to jobs because I don't remember my last few and just assume nobody will hire me(even though that is ultimately an assumption being the way things are I know I'd just be wasting my time for the most part and my chances are pretty low). I've had literally dozens and dozens of jobs in the past. I would not want to do some of those again(fast food for example)just for the sake of having a job. If it's not going to be significantly more than what I get now on SSD then it's not worth it. Needless to say I can't afford to pay for classes of any kind.
Any advice or suggestions that are not mean spirited or negative are welcome.