There's a guy I work with who is the type to be well liked by pretty much everyone, it seems. He's what you think of when you hear the phrase, 'full of life.' He seems to try to be friendly to everyone, even me. And all I can wonder is, 'why on earth would you try with me, when I always have nothing to say, and sometimes get so nervous I can't even smile at you.'
I wish there was an off switch, to make yourself stop feeling attracted to someone. Because then, at least we could be friends. 'cause I feel that, despite my egregious social maladies, he's still willing to give me a chance. Even if, the more chances I get to say something, the more likely it'll be that he won't bother anymore.
I just feel so much heartache when I'm around him, misreading those stupid signs we all like to believe in sometimes. And he's the only one who's tried this hard with me in a really long time, which just makes me wish even harder that I could.. just stop feeling this way!
I duno, I figure a lot of people are dealing with this kind of thing... anyone else want to get it off their chest? :\
I wish there was an off switch, to make yourself stop feeling attracted to someone. Because then, at least we could be friends. 'cause I feel that, despite my egregious social maladies, he's still willing to give me a chance. Even if, the more chances I get to say something, the more likely it'll be that he won't bother anymore.
I just feel so much heartache when I'm around him, misreading those stupid signs we all like to believe in sometimes. And he's the only one who's tried this hard with me in a really long time, which just makes me wish even harder that I could.. just stop feeling this way!
I duno, I figure a lot of people are dealing with this kind of thing... anyone else want to get it off their chest? :\