edamame721
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Today my family held a memorial for my grandmother who passed away last year. I didn't get enough sleep the day before, stood in pouring rain, had wet feet for an hour on the drive back, suffered from motion sickness and was around a family member I'm partially estranged from (basically, they kept asking me to do something I was not able to do and made me feel guilty about it instead of taking no for an answer, so I had to stop contact with them altogether).
When I arrived at my uncle's house, I was depressed and started thinking about the future in a bleak way. It got so bad I started crying and had to take a nap. I begged off early and went home instead of spending more time with my family.
I felt like I was absorbing every complaint that was made about their lives and I couldn't be around it. I needed to do something for myself to lift my mood. I was pretty shocked at how my own mood devolved and wonder if it was just the circumstances I was in.
(I had a former friend who made me feel horrible by saying I couldn't keep up happy appearances at a gathering of theirs and ruined it, so nowadays, I remove myself from situations if I feel I can't do so. )
When I arrived at my uncle's house, I was depressed and started thinking about the future in a bleak way. It got so bad I started crying and had to take a nap. I begged off early and went home instead of spending more time with my family.
I felt like I was absorbing every complaint that was made about their lives and I couldn't be around it. I needed to do something for myself to lift my mood. I was pretty shocked at how my own mood devolved and wonder if it was just the circumstances I was in.
(I had a former friend who made me feel horrible by saying I couldn't keep up happy appearances at a gathering of theirs and ruined it, so nowadays, I remove myself from situations if I feel I can't do so. )