I feel so ******* stupid, I don't know if it's my hormones or what it is exactly. I'm 16 years old and I found my first summer job as a waitress in a cafe and everyone there of course is 10 years and older. I live in asia so I can only communicate with 3 out of 10 of the kitchen staff. They all speak mandarin while I speak Cantonese and English. So most of the time I don't get to have long conversations with them.
Yesterday I was overly happy and I made one of the kitchen staff help my put food in the takeaway box and help my grab something that was stored in a very high place. Normally they would help us do that stuff (but not putting food in the takeaway box) Then I was trying to make conversation with him and I asked him why he dyed his hair and he said he doesn't like it black. He said it's too short or something and I said no it's ok looks handsome. I think it was out of line when I said that because he looked uncomfortable and they walked away to use his phone. Another part timer a classmate of mine also works there and we always make him speak Cantonese because he has been trying to learn how to count or say specific things. I did a lot of weird honeysuckle yesterday to get his attention but the worst of it was asking him to put food in the box and helping me get something stored in a high place after, while making weird small talk with him. I know it may not seem like anything but I can feel that it's kinda flirting and it was wrong of me to do so.I think i'm overreacting but I don't know. When it came to closing he was nice enough to offer me and my classmate a tangerine and he said goodbye. When that happened he made me even more guilty. I don't want to take advantage of that. I feel extremely stupid for what I have done yesterday. I am kinda attracted but I know it's wrong and I step out of my boundaries without purposely or actually trying to make something happen. It was an unconscious thing I did without making clear decisions. Any word of advice or reassurance would be appreciated T.T I'm an extremely confused teenager who's hormones are developing.
Yesterday I was overly happy and I made one of the kitchen staff help my put food in the takeaway box and help my grab something that was stored in a very high place. Normally they would help us do that stuff (but not putting food in the takeaway box) Then I was trying to make conversation with him and I asked him why he dyed his hair and he said he doesn't like it black. He said it's too short or something and I said no it's ok looks handsome. I think it was out of line when I said that because he looked uncomfortable and they walked away to use his phone. Another part timer a classmate of mine also works there and we always make him speak Cantonese because he has been trying to learn how to count or say specific things. I did a lot of weird honeysuckle yesterday to get his attention but the worst of it was asking him to put food in the box and helping me get something stored in a high place after, while making weird small talk with him. I know it may not seem like anything but I can feel that it's kinda flirting and it was wrong of me to do so.I think i'm overreacting but I don't know. When it came to closing he was nice enough to offer me and my classmate a tangerine and he said goodbye. When that happened he made me even more guilty. I don't want to take advantage of that. I feel extremely stupid for what I have done yesterday. I am kinda attracted but I know it's wrong and I step out of my boundaries without purposely or actually trying to make something happen. It was an unconscious thing I did without making clear decisions. Any word of advice or reassurance would be appreciated T.T I'm an extremely confused teenager who's hormones are developing.
