Here Have A Cookie
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So...today has been really hard on my self-esteem and confidence (not like I've ever had very much of that, anyway). I've come to the conclusion that I am too fat and ugly to date. I'm 17, have never had a boyfriend, never been kissed or even held hands with a guy. I'm convinced that the reason for this is because I'm so ugly and fat. I'm extremely shy, but I've had friends ask guys out for me and the answers are always the same. It's either "I'll think about it" or "Sorry, I'm not interested" Which, come on, we all know those are nicer ways of saying "I would never date you". So now, today I've been thinking about past rejections. I have never gotten anything other than total rejection from guys and now I know it's all because I'm fat and ugly.
I don't know what to do about it, either. I've been trying to lose weight, which hasn't been going so good. And besides, even if I did lose weight, I doubt that anyone would go for me still because, in my opinion, I am naturally unattractive. And it isn't like I haven't tried making myself look better. I've tried wearing makeup, but the simple fact is that I actually look worse with makeup. There's no colors or anything that really compliments me. Besides the fact that I can't stand the way it feels on my face. I've also tried working with my hair, but honestly, there's really nothing you can do with my kind of hair.
I have a lot of complaints about my physical appearance. The two ties for number one on my list are my weight and my hair. I'm overweight, which by itself is something that makes me very ugly to guys. My hair...it has a personality of its own. It's very thick and curly, and using any hair products at all will make it look dirty. Other things on my list have to do with my face (I won't even mention these). But anyway, all this is making me feel too ugly to date anyone. Quite frankly, I don't see why anyone would want to date me anyway. It seems like guys only want the pretty ones for girlfriends, and the girls like me are only wanted 'as a friend' or 'like a sister'. It's been getting me really down because I want to get out there an start dating, but I have zero confidence that there's anyone out there willing to date a fat and ugly girl. I feel like because of the way I look, I'm always going to be alone.
Anyway, here's a picture of me so you can see how ugly I am. This is me with no makeup, no hair products, no special effects, filters, touchups, or anything at all to make me look better. It's just me, plain and simple. Now, I want to know, guys (or girls), if any of you would ever be willing to date that. (I bet all of you say no.) I have to get clear about something first, though. I really don't want any of those cheesy self-love lectures, I don't want any "it's what's on the inside that matters" bullshit. I just want to know if I'm dateable or if I should just go home and hide under my bed covers. Please be honest!!
I don't know what to do about it, either. I've been trying to lose weight, which hasn't been going so good. And besides, even if I did lose weight, I doubt that anyone would go for me still because, in my opinion, I am naturally unattractive. And it isn't like I haven't tried making myself look better. I've tried wearing makeup, but the simple fact is that I actually look worse with makeup. There's no colors or anything that really compliments me. Besides the fact that I can't stand the way it feels on my face. I've also tried working with my hair, but honestly, there's really nothing you can do with my kind of hair.
I have a lot of complaints about my physical appearance. The two ties for number one on my list are my weight and my hair. I'm overweight, which by itself is something that makes me very ugly to guys. My hair...it has a personality of its own. It's very thick and curly, and using any hair products at all will make it look dirty. Other things on my list have to do with my face (I won't even mention these). But anyway, all this is making me feel too ugly to date anyone. Quite frankly, I don't see why anyone would want to date me anyway. It seems like guys only want the pretty ones for girlfriends, and the girls like me are only wanted 'as a friend' or 'like a sister'. It's been getting me really down because I want to get out there an start dating, but I have zero confidence that there's anyone out there willing to date a fat and ugly girl. I feel like because of the way I look, I'm always going to be alone.
Anyway, here's a picture of me so you can see how ugly I am. This is me with no makeup, no hair products, no special effects, filters, touchups, or anything at all to make me look better. It's just me, plain and simple. Now, I want to know, guys (or girls), if any of you would ever be willing to date that. (I bet all of you say no.) I have to get clear about something first, though. I really don't want any of those cheesy self-love lectures, I don't want any "it's what's on the inside that matters" bullshit. I just want to know if I'm dateable or if I should just go home and hide under my bed covers. Please be honest!!