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anthonyS13

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The last time I logged into here was March of last year, when I felt like I had some idea of where I belong. A few months after that, I was laid off, and dropped out of community college. I was greatly discouraged and didn't see any reason to continue on some unclear path.

Now it is almost August of 2014, and my slump has continued for almost 15 months. I am completely unable to find work as no one sees any value in me wherever I go, no matter how open and friendly I appear when I show interest in possible employment. I have not been able to gain any sort of unemployment benefits and have felt like I've been a waste of space everywhere I go. I have not a single friend where I live who can help me out of this rut, and no automobile I can use anytime to get where I'd like to go. I have the overwhelming feeling I should leave this town and it's empty opportunities, because not even my family can help me be of use anymore.

I am putting more weight on, feeling slower, and deteriorating. It's as if I'm losing control of my physical, mental, and emotional well-being. Every night, I envision my own self living alone with no home somewhere, as if it'll really be my future.

I feel like there is no solution to reverse this slump as I have met a dead end. Sometimes I question why I'm even still alive.
 
Most people in school or employed are completely useless anyway, there's nothing wrong with this.
 
PieBeNice said:
Rainbows said:
Go back to college.

If you read his post you'd see how he said he doesn't want to go down that path anymore.

It's... discouraging how I failed out of that school. I have no passion for any profession, and I wish I did... I can't make a clear, definite path. So now, I just stay here inside, wishing someone could bring me somewhere new and eventually develop interests in things again.
 
PieBeNice said:
What were you studying?

I'm not even sure I had a clear profession I was studying. I took some music classes such as Audio Production and Music Theory, but it was so frustratingly complicating to me that I promised to not put my mind through that kind of stress and embarrassment again. I'm all alone here, and I want to leave all this behind and love with someone who will care and help me get on some kind of path. I need to live somewhere new.
 
anthonyS13 said:
I'm all alone here, and I want to leave all this behind and love with someone who will care and help me get on some kind of path. I need to live somewhere new.

Yea, but if you don't feel good about yourself, you are never going to let anyone care or like you.
 
Nicolelt said:
anthonyS13 said:
I'm all alone here, and I want to leave all this behind and love with someone who will care and help me get on some kind of path. I need to live somewhere new.

Yea, but if you don't feel good about yourself, you are never going to let anyone care or like you.

Gibberish.
 
Nicolelt said:
anthonyS13 said:
I'm all alone here, and I want to leave all this behind and love with someone who will care and help me get on some kind of path. I need to live somewhere new.

Yea, but if you don't feel good about yourself, you are never going to let anyone care or like you.

Or you're going to ruin yourself and the person in question.
 
Rainbows said:
Nicolelt said:
anthonyS13 said:
I'm all alone here, and I want to leave all this behind and love with someone who will care and help me get on some kind of path. I need to live somewhere new.

Yea, but if you don't feel good about yourself, you are never going to let anyone care or like you.

Or you're going to ruin yourself and the person in question.

I want to be helped... I want to feel like I am more able to find a solution. But everyone around me seems to turn a blind eye to what I need, because they're disappointed and seemingly ashamed to be around me. I can't feel good about myself if no one can accept me or have me around. It's as if I was born to be disliked and ignored.
 
PieBeNice said:
Nicolelt said:
Yea, but if you don't feel good about yourself, you are never going to let anyone care or like you.

Gibberish.

It does sound like one of those bullshit cliche'd phrases, so my natural reaction is to challenge it, but it's certainly not unheard of. Insecurities destroying a relationship? Quite common actually.

It may not make much sense, until you see it happen.
 
painter said:
PieBeNice said:
Yea, but if you don't feel good about yourself, you are never going to let anyone care or like you.

Gibberish.

It does sound like one of those bullshit cliche'd phrases, so my natural reaction is to challenge it, but it's certainly not unheard of. Insecurities destroying a relationship? Quite common actually.

It may not make much sense, until you see it happen.
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The quote thing you did made it seem like I said the thing someone else said.
 
anthonyS13 said:
Rainbows said:
Nicolelt said:
anthonyS13 said:
I'm all alone here, and I want to leave all this behind and love with someone who will care and help me get on some kind of path. I need to live somewhere new.

Yea, but if you don't feel good about yourself, you are never going to let anyone care or like you.

Or you're going to ruin yourself and the person in question.

I want to be helped... I want to feel like I am more able to find a solution. But everyone around me seems to turn a blind eye to what I need, because they're disappointed and seemingly ashamed to be around me. I can't feel good about myself if no one can accept me or have me around. It's as if I was born to be disliked and ignored.

Then seek help. Go to a counselor. I had too. I had no idea what I wanted to with life, or where to go, and my friends and family could not help me. It wasn't their job. I got help, and it lead me to go to a different university, where I met more people and pursued something I liked.

And if people want to ignore you and dislike you, fresia 'em, find new friends.
 
PieBeNice said:
Can you play an instrument?

Well, some guitar and I used to write my own songs. But I never thought I was any good, and I had no people to play with.
 
Nicolelt said:
anthonyS13 said:
Rainbows said:
Nicolelt said:
anthonyS13 said:
I'm all alone here, and I want to leave all this behind and love with someone who will care and help me get on some kind of path. I need to live somewhere new.

Yea, but if you don't feel good about yourself, you are never going to let anyone care or like you.

Or you're going to ruin yourself and the person in question.

I want to be helped... I want to feel like I am more able to find a solution. But everyone around me seems to turn a blind eye to what I need, because they're disappointed and seemingly ashamed to be around me. I can't feel good about myself if no one can accept me or have me around. It's as if I was born to be disliked and ignored.

Then seek help. Go to a counselor. I had too. I had no idea what I wanted to with life, or where to go, and my friends and family could not help me. It wasn't their job. I got help, and it lead me to go to a different university, where I met more people and pursued something I liked.

And if people want to ignore you and dislike you, fresia 'em, find new friends.

Don't literally fresia them though, that's not the perfect way to part ways.
 
Rainbows said:
Nicolelt said:
anthonyS13 said:
Rainbows said:
Nicolelt said:
Yea, but if you don't feel good about yourself, you are never going to let anyone care or like you.

Or you're going to ruin yourself and the person in question.

I want to be helped... I want to feel like I am more able to find a solution. But everyone around me seems to turn a blind eye to what I need, because they're disappointed and seemingly ashamed to be around me. I can't feel good about myself if no one can accept me or have me around. It's as if I was born to be disliked and ignored.

Then seek help. Go to a counselor. I had too. I had no idea what I wanted to with life, or where to go, and my friends and family could not help me. It wasn't their job. I got help, and it lead me to go to a different university, where I met more people and pursued something I liked.

And if people want to ignore you and dislike you, fresia 'em, find new friends.

Don't literally fresia them though, that's not the perfect way to part ways.

Yes, don't literally fresia them....that would be bad.
 

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