Case
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Mom and Dad are both dead, and I have relationships with my brother and sister that are similar to my deceased parents, except that, unlike my parents, my siblings both, presumably, still have heartbeats.
My sister, I understand. We haven't been in close contact for 20 years. But, she's on my Facebook now, so that's more than nothing. But my brother is different. We used to be quite close, and now he is a near-stranger to me. He never informs me about the most important parts of his life if he can help it. I didn't know about his marriage until almost the day of the wedding, and since that was in another country, I was not invited.
I am reminded of this because I just received an email from him telling me and my sister that he will be out of the country with his family for one month. Yes. One month. When does he leave? Tonight. He apologized for not telling us sooner, and he made some bullshit excuse about plans not being concrete until today. Right.
It's just another painful reminder of how much I wish I had a family. I don't mean having a wife and a child. (Although, a wife would be nice. ) No. I mean that my biologicals don't talk to me, and I find that sad.
It's this envy I have for people who have close families that prompts me to seek surrogate family members to take the place of the real family members who want nothing to do with me. Unfortunately, I will occasionally push myself away from these surrogate families because I have a fear that I take too much of their time as it is. Either that, or I feel less and less like a happy person that I don't want to bring anyone down.
Right now, these thoughts are contributing to my low state of mind.
My sister, I understand. We haven't been in close contact for 20 years. But, she's on my Facebook now, so that's more than nothing. But my brother is different. We used to be quite close, and now he is a near-stranger to me. He never informs me about the most important parts of his life if he can help it. I didn't know about his marriage until almost the day of the wedding, and since that was in another country, I was not invited.
I am reminded of this because I just received an email from him telling me and my sister that he will be out of the country with his family for one month. Yes. One month. When does he leave? Tonight. He apologized for not telling us sooner, and he made some bullshit excuse about plans not being concrete until today. Right.
It's just another painful reminder of how much I wish I had a family. I don't mean having a wife and a child. (Although, a wife would be nice. ) No. I mean that my biologicals don't talk to me, and I find that sad.
It's this envy I have for people who have close families that prompts me to seek surrogate family members to take the place of the real family members who want nothing to do with me. Unfortunately, I will occasionally push myself away from these surrogate families because I have a fear that I take too much of their time as it is. Either that, or I feel less and less like a happy person that I don't want to bring anyone down.
Right now, these thoughts are contributing to my low state of mind.