When in reality I SHOULD BE! I am looking at my wrap sheet and it is PATHETIC! I mean across the board its just sad. I cant seem to get a date to save my life. I am a late bloomer in almost every aspect. Always had an issue with my appearance...I am an ugly dude. I haven't been laid in forever! I am broke. My 'career' choices have been elementary at best. You name it I am average or bottom of the barrel.
However, I rarely if ever feel sad or depressed. I only truly feel sad is when I am honestly running extremely low on money and or facing homelessness. Then I sink to a new level of depression. It sucks when you honestly have no one to call to help you. However, those moments are very rare for me in life I try an be-sure that never happens to me. Its either that or when someone I truly cares about dies . Well considering the ONLY person I truly cared about had already passed--My Grandmother! LOVED HER! People have NO idea. Sure I love my mom as well but she can be very unlovable at times--nothing like my grandmother! Oh yea that and the Holidays. Any of em, they all suck imo.
I know I SHOULD be but I often find myself laughing...A lot! Alone sure but I laugh my ASS off alone. I always find comedy in something . Not saying that has gotten me any where in life but I do wonder why I am not an angry or depressed person of the world.
However, I rarely if ever feel sad or depressed. I only truly feel sad is when I am honestly running extremely low on money and or facing homelessness. Then I sink to a new level of depression. It sucks when you honestly have no one to call to help you. However, those moments are very rare for me in life I try an be-sure that never happens to me. Its either that or when someone I truly cares about dies . Well considering the ONLY person I truly cared about had already passed--My Grandmother! LOVED HER! People have NO idea. Sure I love my mom as well but she can be very unlovable at times--nothing like my grandmother! Oh yea that and the Holidays. Any of em, they all suck imo.
I know I SHOULD be but I often find myself laughing...A lot! Alone sure but I laugh my ASS off alone. I always find comedy in something . Not saying that has gotten me any where in life but I do wonder why I am not an angry or depressed person of the world.