Female. Not pretty. Noticeable lack of intelligence. Outrageous lack of personality (no conversation, no comedic skills, nothing really unique about me).
Those are the cards life has handed me.
With that said, I'm pretty certain that I'll remain single forever or be with some desperate guy who decided to be with me because he really, really couldn't find anything better. Both prospects are very unpleasant.
Is any of you in the same situation? How do you deal with that?
It just makes me ache on a visceral level to know that I'll probably never have a satisfying love relationship or friendship in life because relationships are such a great source of happiness and meaning in life for everyone. Love songs are almost everything you hear on the radio. I want to live that toxic passion that everyone whines about. I want to feel alive.
But I never will. That's reserved for pretty girls, charming girls, funny girls and I'm not one of them.
So what do I do? From where else am I supposed to derive the happiness and satisfaction that will make me stop wondering every day what's the point of this life I'm living? It's going nowhere. The bad outweighs the good in my life right now and I'm just tired of it. I'm still here because I have a really strong survival instinct, not because I have many positives that genuinely make me desire to live. I'm tired of the social isolation. And the prospect of eternal isolation is getting harder and harder to bear with time.
I'm here because I hope that this forum will make me feel like I'm part of a group who understands me, a little family maybe, and substitute for my lack of friends.
I need a listening ear. I need your advice. I need support.
If you're dealing with the same thing, what is it like for you? What do you think I should do?
Those are the cards life has handed me.
With that said, I'm pretty certain that I'll remain single forever or be with some desperate guy who decided to be with me because he really, really couldn't find anything better. Both prospects are very unpleasant.
Is any of you in the same situation? How do you deal with that?
It just makes me ache on a visceral level to know that I'll probably never have a satisfying love relationship or friendship in life because relationships are such a great source of happiness and meaning in life for everyone. Love songs are almost everything you hear on the radio. I want to live that toxic passion that everyone whines about. I want to feel alive.
But I never will. That's reserved for pretty girls, charming girls, funny girls and I'm not one of them.
So what do I do? From where else am I supposed to derive the happiness and satisfaction that will make me stop wondering every day what's the point of this life I'm living? It's going nowhere. The bad outweighs the good in my life right now and I'm just tired of it. I'm still here because I have a really strong survival instinct, not because I have many positives that genuinely make me desire to live. I'm tired of the social isolation. And the prospect of eternal isolation is getting harder and harder to bear with time.
I'm here because I hope that this forum will make me feel like I'm part of a group who understands me, a little family maybe, and substitute for my lack of friends.
I need a listening ear. I need your advice. I need support.
If you're dealing with the same thing, what is it like for you? What do you think I should do?