There is this old HBO show I've been watching off tudou.com called Oz. In the show some of the characters have been forced to have a kind of Conditioned continuous Rage in order to protect themselves.
Being a guy I could totally relate with the episode I saw yesterday where one of the characters goes into a constant rage and beats the crap out of the guy who abused him in Oz. And after that it's like a vicious cycle where he now has this continuous rage that he knows he subconsciously has to put forth. However, rage is energy consuming and chaotic. To have this rage means peace can not be obtained, but subconsciously the person knows they would be worse off without the rage in their environment.
I've noticed the reason I am so generally unhappy is because in order to get people to leave me alone or to get some kind of decent respect or treatment from people I have to be the same as this character in the Oz (just not as physical since most of us are restrained from doing so since we would go to prison). And I can't find peace this way but I get more peace than not doing so.
So maybe I'm an idiot and I'm the last person my age to understand this, but this would explain a lot about how americans treat one another. Especially in Orlando, Florida.
Please tell me your thoughts even if it is to tell me I'm a stupid ********.
Being a guy I could totally relate with the episode I saw yesterday where one of the characters goes into a constant rage and beats the crap out of the guy who abused him in Oz. And after that it's like a vicious cycle where he now has this continuous rage that he knows he subconsciously has to put forth. However, rage is energy consuming and chaotic. To have this rage means peace can not be obtained, but subconsciously the person knows they would be worse off without the rage in their environment.
I've noticed the reason I am so generally unhappy is because in order to get people to leave me alone or to get some kind of decent respect or treatment from people I have to be the same as this character in the Oz (just not as physical since most of us are restrained from doing so since we would go to prison). And I can't find peace this way but I get more peace than not doing so.
So maybe I'm an idiot and I'm the last person my age to understand this, but this would explain a lot about how americans treat one another. Especially in Orlando, Florida.
Please tell me your thoughts even if it is to tell me I'm a stupid ********.