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Chris 2

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I am the greatest actor, I put on a front everyday off my life. My parents think everything is fine with me because I am a specialist at what I do, and that is hiding the truth. You won't find a better actor than me, I live in sham everyday off my life, I quickly change any subject regarding "friends" and pretend to be happy when deep down I am hurt inside. I smile when someone would ask me if I have a girlfriend, without anyone noticing how lonely and miserable I have become under my false disguise. I am sick of living this way, everyday my anger grow and grow but I can't help it, I have naturally become adept at lying. I am hurting more and more each day, but have found way to comfort myself after all the years of pain. I don't pray, I don't confess, and I don't fear death nor hell. I am sick, but I keep on living hoping that I can take all my secret down to my grave.



Chris
 
(((((((((((Chris)))))))))))))))
Why do you feel you have to hide what's really going on inside? No wonder your life is so miserable. ((((((((((((((Chris)))))))))))))))))) lots of hugs for you, sweetie. If you keep things pent up inside, they will eventually eat you up.
 
I also thought this about myself when i was depressed, when i however tried out real acting i noticed that i actually was terrible at it! Haha ;) I think we both are pretty good at pretending to be happy, and probably show sad emotions too if it ever would be needed (because of what we have in the trunk), but other than that, oh boy... it's much harder to act than You think! lol
 
Naleena said:
(((((((((((Chris)))))))))))))))
Why do you feel you have to hide what's really going on inside? No wonder your life is so miserable. ((((((((((((((Chris)))))))))))))))))) lots of hugs for you, sweetie. If you keep things pent up inside, they will eventually eat you up.

Naleena your so sweet as always I see. Well beside my mom, both my sister and dad do not deserve the truth. Just last week, my mom told me about this kid who never talk to anyone and have no friends, and she was pretty much laughing at how such a loser he is. Oh wait! what is the point of telling my mom then, so that I can get laugh at some more? I am miserable because I have a dad who treat me like honeysuckle, who only care about himself. When I told him I didn't want to do his dirty job taking him place that only benefit him, he made me feel guilty saying that he wasted 12 hours taking me home from school. Geesh what kind of dad black mail his son? That his duty as a father to bring me home, all I know now is I hope he does not go to heaven. I hate him, I resent him, and if anyone ask, I have no father.
 
I understand where your coming from mate. Every time I have tried to tell someone IRL how am feeling they don't look at me the same again. And even worse say something retarded like stop feeling sorry for your self. If only it was that easy. Well most of the time am fine and only get down sometimes. Well I always have that feeling there. But don't get to down most of the time. So I never bother expressing my feelings to anyone I know. its not predictive or useful in anyway I can see. But that's just me. Your mom might think differently about you even though she did call that other guy a loser. That BTW I think is a very sad thing to do. specially since the lad is in pain and your mom take the piss out of him. I do actually feel sorry for you for the parents you have ended up with. Well you can pick ye friends but not your family.

If I was you and my dad was saying things like that when he was giving me a left I would just seat there laughing and say something like "unlucky ducky" I would just laugh at it and make everything he says into a joke. This way it don't show how much it bothers you and shows him up for what he is without actually getting into an argument. there is a way of doing this things that I have done many times and umer can get you a long way. I am well practised in this art with the ppl I know IRL.

As far as acting goes. This I did a bit of at school and actually enjoyed it and was quite good at it. I think I would make a good actor and well do everyday the same as yourself. I think we all do to some degree.
 
Chris 2 said:
Just last week, my mom told me about this kid who never talk to anyone and have no friends, and she was pretty much laughing at how such a loser he is. Oh wait! what is the point of telling my mom then, so that I can get laugh at some more?


That is terrible.

I am a poor actor but people buy it anyway. It's easier i guess.
 
Thank you Chris for sharing your story with us!

Your not alone here, you may be surprised just how many people feel lost and alone, feel forsaken, feel they have to put on a facade. I know that often I feel like I have to always be happy, always be helpful, etc... But sometimes I just can't keep it up. I have to cry, and I need a shoulder to cry on.

If you want to talk, I am here.
 
Bluey said:
I understand where your coming from mate. Every time I have tried to tell someone IRL how am feeling they don't look at me the same again. And even worse say something retarded like stop feeling sorry for your self. If only it was that easy. Well most of the time am fine and only get down sometimes. Well I always have that feeling there. But don't get to down most of the time. So I never bother expressing my feelings to anyone I know. its not predictive or useful in anyway I can see. But that's just me. Your mom might think differently about you even though she did call that other guy a loser. That BTW I think is a very sad thing to do. specially since the lad is in pain and your mom take the piss out of him. I do actually feel sorry for you for the parents you have ended up with. Well you can pick ye friends but not your family.

If I was you and my dad was saying things like that when he was giving me a left I would just seat there laughing and say something like "unlucky ducky" I would just laugh at it and make everything he says into a joke. This way it don't show how much it bothers you and shows him up for what he is without actually getting into an argument. there is a way of doing this things that I have done many times and umer can get you a long way. I am well practised in this art with the ppl I know IRL.

As far as acting goes. This I did a bit of at school and actually enjoyed it and was quite good at it. I think I would make a good actor and well do everyday the same as yourself. I think we all do to some degree.



That the nicest thing anyone ever said to me. Thanks Bluey
 
Minus said:
Chris 2 said:
Just last week, my mom told me about this kid who never talk to anyone and have no friends, and she was pretty much laughing at how such a loser he is. Oh wait! what is the point of telling my mom then, so that I can get laugh at some more?


That is terrible.

I am a poor actor but people buy it anyway. It's easier i guess.

I don't think a lot off ppl do buy it. Not the ppl that know you. I think its just that they not bothered or they are to busy or they have no clue in what would help so they make out they do not see it. Or maybe they think by pretending to not see it that by being positive around you it helps you. Or you are better at acting then you think. sometimes we act a lot better then we think we do. Like in a job interview. We might be shirting it but they can not tell what where feeling.

So reading back what I just put, In actuarial reality I have no clue relay since I gave that many senorios lol -I think to much-
 

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