shawn81
Member
So lately I thought I had been doing a good job keeping myself in a good mood and keeping myself uplifted enough to keep moving forward.
My job is going well, currently on break for college and doing pretty well in my wrestling (pro-wrestling) even getting complimented by big name people.
But like most people from time to time I get lonely. Being 22 and never having a girlfriend really gets you. And I've tried really really hard to change that. I tried talking to alot of people, hanging out with more people and their extended network (which in the end just makes me feel more left out.) I've tried dating sites and never ever even get past a few messages (plus they make me feel pathetic)
And lately I finally found a girl and started talking to her. I thought all was going good I saw the signs and even my friends where saying go for it so I took the jump and asked her out. Obviously I got the NO and it really brought me down a few notches.
I felt like I was doing everything right and headed in the right direction but I still end up like them all. I never get the chance to even prove myself. It happens everytime I get to know a girl I go to ask them out and i get rejected. Not even a date. Not even a chance to prove that I could be worth their time.
And this is why I'm here today. Not because of rejection I'm use to yhat. I'm just starting to get down again bc I'm never given the chance. And I can't help but think why. And loneliness sinks in and why becomes well I'm just not good enough or I'm just to ugly or I'm meant to be alone forever. I know these thoughts are wrong but they hit hard sometimes.
I try talking to friends about this and I get "oh your just not trying hard enough. Or it'll come you just have to wait" I'm sorry but I have waited. Most people have had kids by my age I don't even have the pleasure of saying I held hands with a girl before. And I try i try really really hard.
And when I ask my friends to help me, maybe by trying to blind date me or hook me up they say they will but I never hear of it again. But when they need "some" they'll hop online for 20 minutes and be hanging out with someone in a few hours. Not saying I want that but a little effort would be gracious.
Ultimately I'm saying loneliness sucks, big time, and it sure is making me sink right back to depression again.
My job is going well, currently on break for college and doing pretty well in my wrestling (pro-wrestling) even getting complimented by big name people.
But like most people from time to time I get lonely. Being 22 and never having a girlfriend really gets you. And I've tried really really hard to change that. I tried talking to alot of people, hanging out with more people and their extended network (which in the end just makes me feel more left out.) I've tried dating sites and never ever even get past a few messages (plus they make me feel pathetic)
And lately I finally found a girl and started talking to her. I thought all was going good I saw the signs and even my friends where saying go for it so I took the jump and asked her out. Obviously I got the NO and it really brought me down a few notches.
I felt like I was doing everything right and headed in the right direction but I still end up like them all. I never get the chance to even prove myself. It happens everytime I get to know a girl I go to ask them out and i get rejected. Not even a date. Not even a chance to prove that I could be worth their time.
And this is why I'm here today. Not because of rejection I'm use to yhat. I'm just starting to get down again bc I'm never given the chance. And I can't help but think why. And loneliness sinks in and why becomes well I'm just not good enough or I'm just to ugly or I'm meant to be alone forever. I know these thoughts are wrong but they hit hard sometimes.
I try talking to friends about this and I get "oh your just not trying hard enough. Or it'll come you just have to wait" I'm sorry but I have waited. Most people have had kids by my age I don't even have the pleasure of saying I held hands with a girl before. And I try i try really really hard.
And when I ask my friends to help me, maybe by trying to blind date me or hook me up they say they will but I never hear of it again. But when they need "some" they'll hop online for 20 minutes and be hanging out with someone in a few hours. Not saying I want that but a little effort would be gracious.
Ultimately I'm saying loneliness sucks, big time, and it sure is making me sink right back to depression again.