Hello all thought it was about time i made a post considering how long i have read these forums.Im 18 and live in the uk and ive been lonely for what seems like an eternity. Ever since i was young ive allways had problems with anxiety and i got worse particually when i went to secondary school where i simply couldnt cope with the masses of people .
What started as anxiety eventually drove me away from everyone i knew and today leaves me alone with none ever to talk to and feeling kind of trapped. Untill earlyer this year since my early teens i was slightly overweight perhaps chubby and i guess it never helped my confidence allthough 7 months ago i completly changed my lifestyle in a hope of changing myself into something new. In a way i have succeeded ive lost all the weight and am now slimmer than most peeps i know am quite fit and am a bit of a health freak.
Despite this though i still feel the same i still look in the mirror and see a fat ugly failure.It seems no matter how i change my appearance im still treated the same, i allways get these looks like there is something galringly obviously wrong with me that all the world can see. One thing ive alllways wanted is for someone to just be honest with me and tell me what it is that is wrong with me.
This september im planning to go back to college which is now only 1 month away, my first year at collage left me in dissaray as i had such high hopes of how it would be only to have it all fall arround me and nothing changed i was still left alone and disconnected possibly worse then ever.I just dont want to be alone anymore but it seems nomatter what i do my efforts are in vein and im just meant to be alone.
Well im sorry for the long post this is like 1 millionth of the stuff i wanna say lol but i just dont wanna make to long of a post and not have anyone read it. I just want to thank alot of posters on this forum because alot of you are incredible realy i love the stuff you wright its made me think alot about myself and helped me in many ways.
Ty to anyone who replies
What started as anxiety eventually drove me away from everyone i knew and today leaves me alone with none ever to talk to and feeling kind of trapped. Untill earlyer this year since my early teens i was slightly overweight perhaps chubby and i guess it never helped my confidence allthough 7 months ago i completly changed my lifestyle in a hope of changing myself into something new. In a way i have succeeded ive lost all the weight and am now slimmer than most peeps i know am quite fit and am a bit of a health freak.
Despite this though i still feel the same i still look in the mirror and see a fat ugly failure.It seems no matter how i change my appearance im still treated the same, i allways get these looks like there is something galringly obviously wrong with me that all the world can see. One thing ive alllways wanted is for someone to just be honest with me and tell me what it is that is wrong with me.
This september im planning to go back to college which is now only 1 month away, my first year at collage left me in dissaray as i had such high hopes of how it would be only to have it all fall arround me and nothing changed i was still left alone and disconnected possibly worse then ever.I just dont want to be alone anymore but it seems nomatter what i do my efforts are in vein and im just meant to be alone.
Well im sorry for the long post this is like 1 millionth of the stuff i wanna say lol but i just dont wanna make to long of a post and not have anyone read it. I just want to thank alot of posters on this forum because alot of you are incredible realy i love the stuff you wright its made me think alot about myself and helped me in many ways.
Ty to anyone who replies