lonelypanda
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Hola, I'm here to introduce myself and maybe share a little panda back story. I found this place googling lonliness, kinda pathetic but whatever. Haha i creeped for a bit and really saw alot of similar mentality that I have from people on here so signed up.
A little about me now, well I have no friends, I'm weird and annoying, and it's hard to find friends. It's hard for me to find that common ground. I'm too tomboyish for girlfriends and too girly for guy friends, in addition to that im really childish. I have a love hate relationship with my loneliness. Sometimes I really enjoy being alone, even love it. I've taken myself to dinner and a movie before, I go for walks alone. I've even traveled alone and had a blast! I brought my toy ninja turtle and I talk to him, I bring him everywhere with me. He's my friend lol .... but then there's times when I hate it, I wish I had that close best friends kinda relationship that I see other people have. I have a bf and we've been together for 2 years, he's my only "friend" and I use that term loosely because I know he just keeps me around for sex. In that 2 years he's never once said I love you, or anything for that matter. He's never expressed even an ounce of feelings for me. There isn't even that twinkle of love in his eye
he's never introduced me to his family either, his dad in particular who lives with him, and I've been to his house many many times. He refuses to when I bring it up. When i try and cuddle him he resists, I've deemed it cuddle raping. Yeah, im a cuddle rapist. So yeah, I know he keeps me around as his little fresia toy, but I don't care. I have no one, I'd rather be used than alone and I know how pathetic that sounds but at least i have someone to hang out with. I would literally be sitting by myself on my couch every weekend if he wasn't around. I realize this sounds depressing, and while it is it's not as bad as it seems. My emotions have been so numbed by this that now it's not as bad as it once was for me.
Any who, that's my lonely ass sob story. Haha how's everyone's lonely day going ?
A little about me now, well I have no friends, I'm weird and annoying, and it's hard to find friends. It's hard for me to find that common ground. I'm too tomboyish for girlfriends and too girly for guy friends, in addition to that im really childish. I have a love hate relationship with my loneliness. Sometimes I really enjoy being alone, even love it. I've taken myself to dinner and a movie before, I go for walks alone. I've even traveled alone and had a blast! I brought my toy ninja turtle and I talk to him, I bring him everywhere with me. He's my friend lol .... but then there's times when I hate it, I wish I had that close best friends kinda relationship that I see other people have. I have a bf and we've been together for 2 years, he's my only "friend" and I use that term loosely because I know he just keeps me around for sex. In that 2 years he's never once said I love you, or anything for that matter. He's never expressed even an ounce of feelings for me. There isn't even that twinkle of love in his eye
he's never introduced me to his family either, his dad in particular who lives with him, and I've been to his house many many times. He refuses to when I bring it up. When i try and cuddle him he resists, I've deemed it cuddle raping. Yeah, im a cuddle rapist. So yeah, I know he keeps me around as his little fresia toy, but I don't care. I have no one, I'd rather be used than alone and I know how pathetic that sounds but at least i have someone to hang out with. I would literally be sitting by myself on my couch every weekend if he wasn't around. I realize this sounds depressing, and while it is it's not as bad as it seems. My emotions have been so numbed by this that now it's not as bad as it once was for me. Any who, that's my lonely ass sob story. Haha how's everyone's lonely day going ?
