edamame721
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I had one this past week. I turned off my phone and ended up sleeping most of my time. Today, I finally emerged and tried to do something nice for my family but it was unappreciated.
When I get near to the point of deep depression, I reach out but am told I am tiresome, too closed, or refused. So then, I withdraw, and a downward spiral happens.
I have to work to do little things to make me happy (like buying myself flowers). At that point, sometimes, people get worried about me because of my silence, but by then it's too late. It feels like an intrusion and sometimes it feels like they noticed because they wanted something from me and I wasn't there to answer them.
I was rebuffed because I was "sad" often, so I don't even feel like I can be genuine about it. If I try to keep conversations on light topics, the conversation is meaningless, etc. If I am in a happy place, I often don't want to let in the people who I couldn't count on when I was at my worst.
Does it ever get easier? Does this happen to "normal" people?
When I get near to the point of deep depression, I reach out but am told I am tiresome, too closed, or refused. So then, I withdraw, and a downward spiral happens.
I have to work to do little things to make me happy (like buying myself flowers). At that point, sometimes, people get worried about me because of my silence, but by then it's too late. It feels like an intrusion and sometimes it feels like they noticed because they wanted something from me and I wasn't there to answer them.
I was rebuffed because I was "sad" often, so I don't even feel like I can be genuine about it. If I try to keep conversations on light topics, the conversation is meaningless, etc. If I am in a happy place, I often don't want to let in the people who I couldn't count on when I was at my worst.
Does it ever get easier? Does this happen to "normal" people?