randomdude
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I am 21 year old guy from Eastern Europe, and I came to the point where I feel so lost and hopeless. I am disappointed in everything that life has to offer. I abandoned my goal of becoming as fit as possible and i have quit the gym after 2.5 years of going nearly everyday, partially it was economic problem but mostly it was just me being too depressed to leave my house. I used to have a job at one restaurant and it made me realize how disgusting people can be. Amount of trash talking, jealousy, no respect and insults towards everyone just to show they are dominant this basically made me wanna throw up... I am awkward to the core of my being and I get depressed a lot, but what makes me suicidal is that I didn't achieve much in the battle with depression. I don't find talking with therapists helpful at all and i doubt anything you can reply to this text could help me but I will try my best to try to use your advice. People see me as a weirdo and many people judge me because i have lip piercing for some time now. It was so long since i had a girlfriend and to be honest I can't even make friends not to mention to have relationships. I am so suicidal I feel like I should just get some balls and die from medicine overdose and finish this honeysuckle. It's 5:45 am here and I can't sleep from depression please give me some hints. Worst of all most people I talked to about my problems don't get me seriously. I was part of this forum since i was nearly 16 on different accounts and I never had balls and I was always in fear to post my picture here i think now it's time. And by the way how do I get myself back on the track step by step?