Alone By Faults
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Recently I had been in contact with an ex that I have been having problems getting over. We had lived together for years and she went no contact for 90 days or so. She decided to get back into contact because her current relationship is not giving her everything she wants.
Texting and emailing back and forth when I look carefully at one of the emails. It has my em address in parenthesis and next to it the contact name is Catherine. I confronted her about it and she said that it was best to be circumspect because her current man would flip if he found out.
Day or two later something snapped in me. I have had problems in the past with lying. Performance based relationships gave me the excuse to lie and I did so. I lost a great deal of myself and who I am trying to please others. To the point that I have little left and my life is simple. Having so little to protect, I have decided to change.
Instead of lying, I will say that I am unwilling to answer that. I will not engage in behaviors or place myself in situations where I feel the need to protect things, assets, ego, or relationships.
I have learned to live alone but now I choose to live with myself....
so from a man name Catherine, I thank my ex for a gift she will never know its true value.
I pray to have the strength to not talk to her, cut contact, and walk this road where I can get true value of whom I am with self respect.
Thank you alonelylife, you have helped more than you now also.
CHeers
Texting and emailing back and forth when I look carefully at one of the emails. It has my em address in parenthesis and next to it the contact name is Catherine. I confronted her about it and she said that it was best to be circumspect because her current man would flip if he found out.
Day or two later something snapped in me. I have had problems in the past with lying. Performance based relationships gave me the excuse to lie and I did so. I lost a great deal of myself and who I am trying to please others. To the point that I have little left and my life is simple. Having so little to protect, I have decided to change.
Instead of lying, I will say that I am unwilling to answer that. I will not engage in behaviors or place myself in situations where I feel the need to protect things, assets, ego, or relationships.
I have learned to live alone but now I choose to live with myself....
so from a man name Catherine, I thank my ex for a gift she will never know its true value.
I pray to have the strength to not talk to her, cut contact, and walk this road where I can get true value of whom I am with self respect.
Thank you alonelylife, you have helped more than you now also.
CHeers