netflixonfridaynight
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Last night was horrible...
Tossing and turning trying to get comfortable adjusting the temperature of my apartment, drinking a hot tea, tried listening to some soothing music nothing helped me....I took two sleeping pills and I was still not able to go to sleep. I felt so depressed and by the end of the night my anxiety was at it's peak. I think that the more I try to get better the harder my depression hits me. Sometimes I feel powerful like I got this...then depression creeps up on me and makes me feel weak pulling me back down.
I'm at work right now, with almost 3 hours of sleep and my body is aching extremely....I told myself this morning while getting ready for work that I will get better but I'm starting to feel like maybe it's time for professional help.
Professional help is my last resort. I want to believe theres hope, and if I seek help and it doesn't work IDK what may happen...
I was told that everyone gets depressed at some point in their lives, but I've been this way in the past when I tried to commit suicide so I'm probably going to be this way for the rest of my life.... and it really sucks because it prevents me from enjoying life and makes me feel like I have nothing good to offer the ones i care about. Like I'm a failure for not getting my honeysuckle together, please any advice helps.
Tossing and turning trying to get comfortable adjusting the temperature of my apartment, drinking a hot tea, tried listening to some soothing music nothing helped me....I took two sleeping pills and I was still not able to go to sleep. I felt so depressed and by the end of the night my anxiety was at it's peak. I think that the more I try to get better the harder my depression hits me. Sometimes I feel powerful like I got this...then depression creeps up on me and makes me feel weak pulling me back down.
I'm at work right now, with almost 3 hours of sleep and my body is aching extremely....I told myself this morning while getting ready for work that I will get better but I'm starting to feel like maybe it's time for professional help.
Professional help is my last resort. I want to believe theres hope, and if I seek help and it doesn't work IDK what may happen...
I was told that everyone gets depressed at some point in their lives, but I've been this way in the past when I tried to commit suicide so I'm probably going to be this way for the rest of my life.... and it really sucks because it prevents me from enjoying life and makes me feel like I have nothing good to offer the ones i care about. Like I'm a failure for not getting my honeysuckle together, please any advice helps.