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IceCastles
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I'm really enjoying my time with my baby girl but I can't help but feel like I wish I had other moms or women to talk to and to go out etc.
This is just a long rambling post.
If you've read my previous posts, I have this problem of people inviting me out or asking to meet, but then disappearing or standing me up or cancelling (multiple times). I made the mistake of thinking colleagues were friends, but they are not. I got messages about asking me to visit but given how in the past they've disappeared on me many times, I feel that they are just saying that to be chatty but not meaning it. They aren't really my friends because they make me feel bad and I've caught them gossiping badly about me.
Recently I was about to meet a fellow mom and she no-showed but then messaged me she had no time for new friends. I still have her on my facebook and see her happy photos with her friends.
I am also a student and even though I'm friendly, people do not want to take it to a friendship level. I see that people already have their friends.
I'm also in a meet-up group but people are shouting over each other and I can barely get a word in. I DO talk and can manage conversations but it is hard to get a word in if all of the loud people don't even stop to catch a breath. I feel like Silent Bob there. I did try to talk but the only way I could get a word in was interrupting which I think makes me look rude but it is hard to talk to people that love to hear themselves. What do I do!?!
I feel like I'm the odd one out and I wonder why no one likes me enough to put in some effort. I feel very unlikable and very bad about myself. At 18 I started to really try to work out my social problems but now at almost 30 I realize that maybe it's not them, it's me.
This is just a long rambling post.
If you've read my previous posts, I have this problem of people inviting me out or asking to meet, but then disappearing or standing me up or cancelling (multiple times). I made the mistake of thinking colleagues were friends, but they are not. I got messages about asking me to visit but given how in the past they've disappeared on me many times, I feel that they are just saying that to be chatty but not meaning it. They aren't really my friends because they make me feel bad and I've caught them gossiping badly about me.
Recently I was about to meet a fellow mom and she no-showed but then messaged me she had no time for new friends. I still have her on my facebook and see her happy photos with her friends.
I am also a student and even though I'm friendly, people do not want to take it to a friendship level. I see that people already have their friends.
I'm also in a meet-up group but people are shouting over each other and I can barely get a word in. I DO talk and can manage conversations but it is hard to get a word in if all of the loud people don't even stop to catch a breath. I feel like Silent Bob there. I did try to talk but the only way I could get a word in was interrupting which I think makes me look rude but it is hard to talk to people that love to hear themselves. What do I do!?!
I feel like I'm the odd one out and I wonder why no one likes me enough to put in some effort. I feel very unlikable and very bad about myself. At 18 I started to really try to work out my social problems but now at almost 30 I realize that maybe it's not them, it's me.