Eternitydreamer
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I honestly am 100% alone, I haven't had a friend since I was 13 and the friend I had was false. She was using me and didn't like me the entire time. She moved on and by her blog posts I have spied on, it confirms she thought nothing of me.
I have nobody and spend my life at home alone. People look at me weird in public. They either look disgusted or amused. I am 24 and hate myself and my life. I think I'm an OK person. I smile if I can at others I try. I'm not a mean heartless person. In fact I'm very loyal and loving.
I have tried communities online, I have tried real life, I have tried Facebook groups...but no one will accept me or want me to be their friend. I join a group for people who are freaks like me and get 4 comments that are not helpful or too welcoming. This one chick posts pretty much what I was saying and gets about 30 comments confirming how she feels, wanting to be her friend and constantly saying how they are like her. To be rejected for a place for rejects. I left quickly.
That hurt.
I've tried people who are of my faith, nothing. Several groups. (i am a Christian)
I have not asked anyone to be my friend because that is desperate and stupid, but no one has reached out to me.
All of my attempts in the past have been one-sided. I used to have quite a lot of people in my friends list (no one I knew in real life) but no one had interest in me.
I post about being suicidial, I get about 10 comments like "don't do that" and others post the same thing "we are here for you!!" And such kind comments that reach over 40 replies. This is for a place for Christian people. Do I give off a bad vibe?!
I've tried online dating something is "wrong" with me..my looks or who I am. They look don't say anything or post rejection comments. I think I'm too ugly.
I haven't had a single date in my entire life. I've never had a boyfriend at all or even been kissed or had anyone crush on me! Online dating hasn't worked. No one has taken any interest in me at all. This is all I've been online. The only times I did have interest were for sex.
I tried through high school but I couldn't get anybody. I hid in the school toilets a lot and skipped school because of the amount of bullying I was suffering. I had zero friends then too.
I went to church and gave at least 10 youths (mostly a year or two older) my text number when I was 17, not a single person texted me. I've tried Facebook adding them when I was 17, they wanted nothing to do with me or denied me. They didn't even know I deleted our "friendship" (this was 2009). Thinking back they looked amused I did what I did. I went around giving fairy cards with my text number inside and a nice message.
I tried people who shared interests. They rejected me and wanted nothing to do with me.
I have been 100% alone since I was 13. I've put myself out there and no one likes me.
Life is so not worth it. I'm so alone and miserable. I am so tired of being alone. I even went to this depression thing once when I was 19 but no one made attempts.
I feel like I am so worthless. No one from my past has reached out to me. All the kids from my past...friends with each other on facebook and I wonder why they never thought I was "good enough". Even a teacher saying hello would be enough.
The only time i was reached out too by was two school bullies who deleted me the next day (several years ago)
How is it even possible I am the ONLY person through all of my school years to not have any of them on my friend's list? None ever reached out to me..but I wouldn't want them on there anyway. They all bullied me (or) ignored me totally. At least a teacher? Nope...they all didn't like me either.
Friends list (1) and that person is my mother. Emotionally abusive one at that. I live with her and my a**hole stepfather. (Never had a father in my lofe)
You have probably picked up I don't work. No I have never worked. Nothing much to say about that...I never got degrees or finished school or had any support to get one. Ideally I would like to be a Psychologist or work in a library.
I wish I was dead. No one would come to my funeral.
I have nobody and spend my life at home alone. People look at me weird in public. They either look disgusted or amused. I am 24 and hate myself and my life. I think I'm an OK person. I smile if I can at others I try. I'm not a mean heartless person. In fact I'm very loyal and loving.
I have tried communities online, I have tried real life, I have tried Facebook groups...but no one will accept me or want me to be their friend. I join a group for people who are freaks like me and get 4 comments that are not helpful or too welcoming. This one chick posts pretty much what I was saying and gets about 30 comments confirming how she feels, wanting to be her friend and constantly saying how they are like her. To be rejected for a place for rejects. I left quickly.
That hurt.
I've tried people who are of my faith, nothing. Several groups. (i am a Christian)
I have not asked anyone to be my friend because that is desperate and stupid, but no one has reached out to me.
All of my attempts in the past have been one-sided. I used to have quite a lot of people in my friends list (no one I knew in real life) but no one had interest in me.
I post about being suicidial, I get about 10 comments like "don't do that" and others post the same thing "we are here for you!!" And such kind comments that reach over 40 replies. This is for a place for Christian people. Do I give off a bad vibe?!
I've tried online dating something is "wrong" with me..my looks or who I am. They look don't say anything or post rejection comments. I think I'm too ugly.
I haven't had a single date in my entire life. I've never had a boyfriend at all or even been kissed or had anyone crush on me! Online dating hasn't worked. No one has taken any interest in me at all. This is all I've been online. The only times I did have interest were for sex.
I tried through high school but I couldn't get anybody. I hid in the school toilets a lot and skipped school because of the amount of bullying I was suffering. I had zero friends then too.
I went to church and gave at least 10 youths (mostly a year or two older) my text number when I was 17, not a single person texted me. I've tried Facebook adding them when I was 17, they wanted nothing to do with me or denied me. They didn't even know I deleted our "friendship" (this was 2009). Thinking back they looked amused I did what I did. I went around giving fairy cards with my text number inside and a nice message.
I tried people who shared interests. They rejected me and wanted nothing to do with me.
I have been 100% alone since I was 13. I've put myself out there and no one likes me.
Life is so not worth it. I'm so alone and miserable. I am so tired of being alone. I even went to this depression thing once when I was 19 but no one made attempts.
I feel like I am so worthless. No one from my past has reached out to me. All the kids from my past...friends with each other on facebook and I wonder why they never thought I was "good enough". Even a teacher saying hello would be enough.
The only time i was reached out too by was two school bullies who deleted me the next day (several years ago)
How is it even possible I am the ONLY person through all of my school years to not have any of them on my friend's list? None ever reached out to me..but I wouldn't want them on there anyway. They all bullied me (or) ignored me totally. At least a teacher? Nope...they all didn't like me either.
Friends list (1) and that person is my mother. Emotionally abusive one at that. I live with her and my a**hole stepfather. (Never had a father in my lofe)
You have probably picked up I don't work. No I have never worked. Nothing much to say about that...I never got degrees or finished school or had any support to get one. Ideally I would like to be a Psychologist or work in a library.
I wish I was dead. No one would come to my funeral.