SunWeb
Well-known member
Everything is very simple. But I will start from the beginning of my path of understanding.
I have a lot of people (most of them) in my office that are smokers. I was mad at all smokers but these are realy good people and they are way better then I am. A few days ago I found a book. No. I was on the site and there was theme about smoking, good side, bad side and so on. Almost everyone past smokers on that site offered to read the book of Allen Karr "Easy way to stop smoking". They said that this book helped them and to their friends and family to stop smoking and they feel a lot better now when they are non-smokers. So I wanted to help them. And I ask one girl in my office if she like to read, well she answered that don't like it. I thought that my idea will barried in my head cuz well who the hell I am to advise something to her, I can't even deal with my own problems. And then something hit me hard. I thought: "Hey, I like this girl and I can try to invite her somewhere but I need to do it more intersting". My imagination was huge like never before. You know, real things but something that noone will expect from me or someone ever saw or heard of. But then I think again and HEY i didn't even know how she thinks about me. And I decided to make some original but very simple move. And I remembered the movie with Bruce Willis and Michel Pfiefer. And what is more important the way he invited her to be his girlfriend. Well, I did it. The note "Will you date with me ? Yes or No" was ready. The hardest thing was give it to her. But i didn't forget about my "stop smoking" mission. So I decided to give her this note. If she would tell "yes" then it would be easier to make her non-smoker. Well it was yesterday, I didn't do this. The day was pretty lazy. Almost NO WORKING DAY. And she was seating with her friends and reading some girly magazine and talking. I thought that I will tell her today when the day will start and....well I didn't. I was afraid, no I am afraid. I'm a coward. I just couldn't do it. I am not good story-teller so..... When I read the book of Allen I was impressed. This guy wrote everything correct and what is more important - things that I watch in "Secret" movie and before this movie I discovered it by myself but I wasn't using it. Whatever, when I complete reading the book I became more friendly. But I still have no guts to stay in front of her and telling her about my feelings and "stop smoking" stuff. That means both I am coward and I realy don't love her just like. But thoughts about the saviour of the smokers was and is still in my head. I try to give the book to the other girl but she was to shiny and sweet and I don't want her to have bad feelings about me. All my co-workers notice me when help needed and I understand them fully. And if I would gave her that book she (everyone) won't even smile to me when ask for something. And so this means that i'm still afraid and I don't care of their health at all. I'll try later today. To give someone a book and to give a love note or confession are two different things, right ? I will know the truth when the time will come.
BUT !!!!!!!!
What is the point of my little(cut) story? If someone watched "Donny Darko" you must remember the guy that talked about fear and that this is the key to all our problems. I agry with him now, in a specific way. In most of cases fear is the root of all my problems. We must think positive every day, we can't blame anyone even ourselves, can't judge and so on. This is very hard. I can't even say something funny in terms of black humor. Sarcasm was something that helped me to live more easy. And now I can't do it. Well I try to do and think only positive but can't do it for now, even in this message. So...
GOOD LUCK to EVERYONE, DON'T WORRY - BE HAPPY.
I have a lot of people (most of them) in my office that are smokers. I was mad at all smokers but these are realy good people and they are way better then I am. A few days ago I found a book. No. I was on the site and there was theme about smoking, good side, bad side and so on. Almost everyone past smokers on that site offered to read the book of Allen Karr "Easy way to stop smoking". They said that this book helped them and to their friends and family to stop smoking and they feel a lot better now when they are non-smokers. So I wanted to help them. And I ask one girl in my office if she like to read, well she answered that don't like it. I thought that my idea will barried in my head cuz well who the hell I am to advise something to her, I can't even deal with my own problems. And then something hit me hard. I thought: "Hey, I like this girl and I can try to invite her somewhere but I need to do it more intersting". My imagination was huge like never before. You know, real things but something that noone will expect from me or someone ever saw or heard of. But then I think again and HEY i didn't even know how she thinks about me. And I decided to make some original but very simple move. And I remembered the movie with Bruce Willis and Michel Pfiefer. And what is more important the way he invited her to be his girlfriend. Well, I did it. The note "Will you date with me ? Yes or No" was ready. The hardest thing was give it to her. But i didn't forget about my "stop smoking" mission. So I decided to give her this note. If she would tell "yes" then it would be easier to make her non-smoker. Well it was yesterday, I didn't do this. The day was pretty lazy. Almost NO WORKING DAY. And she was seating with her friends and reading some girly magazine and talking. I thought that I will tell her today when the day will start and....well I didn't. I was afraid, no I am afraid. I'm a coward. I just couldn't do it. I am not good story-teller so..... When I read the book of Allen I was impressed. This guy wrote everything correct and what is more important - things that I watch in "Secret" movie and before this movie I discovered it by myself but I wasn't using it. Whatever, when I complete reading the book I became more friendly. But I still have no guts to stay in front of her and telling her about my feelings and "stop smoking" stuff. That means both I am coward and I realy don't love her just like. But thoughts about the saviour of the smokers was and is still in my head. I try to give the book to the other girl but she was to shiny and sweet and I don't want her to have bad feelings about me. All my co-workers notice me when help needed and I understand them fully. And if I would gave her that book she (everyone) won't even smile to me when ask for something. And so this means that i'm still afraid and I don't care of their health at all. I'll try later today. To give someone a book and to give a love note or confession are two different things, right ? I will know the truth when the time will come.
BUT !!!!!!!!
What is the point of my little(cut) story? If someone watched "Donny Darko" you must remember the guy that talked about fear and that this is the key to all our problems. I agry with him now, in a specific way. In most of cases fear is the root of all my problems. We must think positive every day, we can't blame anyone even ourselves, can't judge and so on. This is very hard. I can't even say something funny in terms of black humor. Sarcasm was something that helped me to live more easy. And now I can't do it. Well I try to do and think only positive but can't do it for now, even in this message. So...
GOOD LUCK to EVERYONE, DON'T WORRY - BE HAPPY.