redbeard 44
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I wish I wasn't like I am.
I smell a bonfire outside my window. I imagine there's a group of people out there drinking, talking, having a good time. The oldest form of companionship is sitting around a fire.
I see couples and families all the time, of all shapes and walks of life, and I wonder how it all eluded me.
I see people chatting and flirting on dating sites and in bars, and I wonder why I can't do that effectively.
There is so many things I would love to do, but I hate doing them alone. Eating in a nice sitdown restaurant, going to a concert, sitting in a bar playing darts or pool, road trips, etc...
I've always been this way, not quite like everybody else. I wish I was like everyone else. People have people, I have nobody. People have family, I have none. People have friends, I have none. People have an impact on others, I have no impact. I'm not 'people'. I am no one. I am the one people pity. I am the one people don't want to be like.
How does one go from being a complete nobody, to somebody?
Do I go up to strangers and offer them to share my private hell? Do I let others feel the reek of desperation from me? Hi, welcome to my hell.
I smell a bonfire outside my window. I imagine there's a group of people out there drinking, talking, having a good time. The oldest form of companionship is sitting around a fire.
I see couples and families all the time, of all shapes and walks of life, and I wonder how it all eluded me.
I see people chatting and flirting on dating sites and in bars, and I wonder why I can't do that effectively.
There is so many things I would love to do, but I hate doing them alone. Eating in a nice sitdown restaurant, going to a concert, sitting in a bar playing darts or pool, road trips, etc...
I've always been this way, not quite like everybody else. I wish I was like everyone else. People have people, I have nobody. People have family, I have none. People have friends, I have none. People have an impact on others, I have no impact. I'm not 'people'. I am no one. I am the one people pity. I am the one people don't want to be like.
How does one go from being a complete nobody, to somebody?
Do I go up to strangers and offer them to share my private hell? Do I let others feel the reek of desperation from me? Hi, welcome to my hell.