I've been interacting with this girl from where I study some time ago. All very casual, we're not close or even friends. Being LS I can't imagine approaching too much or pushing myself to catch her attention, specially since I fear being too clingy or awkward. I think I have a crush on her that has been growing. I notice she was different from the start, she is in 3rd year and I'm on 2nd but I'm about 6 years older. She has this weird sense of humor and some specific hobbies. I was initially interested but now I'm kinda hooked, she's also pretty -a 6 or a 7- (I use the rating system to describe, don't judge me), but I've never had the courage (obviously) to be closer to her. One day my classmates said I should "bang her" or whatever meaning this translates from my language. They said she was probably a virgin and could tell in a way I couldn't. I don't know if that is true but it seems it is. In the 18 months I've know her I've never seen her with a guy; romantically at least. This is a girl that 9 out of 10 times would have a boyfriend but it seems there's no guy behind her. My theory is that she has some kind of social disfunction. She acts weird sometimes and that can repel some men I guess. She's into anime and that obscure corner called Yaoi. I personally don't care about that but I can see why other men find it weird. Even other girls sometimes feel unconfortable around her. She's more awkward that many men and many times off-putting.
I got to play in one of her songs one time and I was able to get her whatsapp without asking We talk sometimes since then but I'm always concious of not pushing too hard or coming as desperate. I always think what I type and I'm concerned of not screwing up with some stupid comment. The problem is she's kinda reclusive and sometimes hard to find. The other day I noticed it was her birthday but she didn't had her facebook activated for it, so only her family and close friends remembered. I thought this was some kind of way of staying in the dark with regards to people. She doesn't like facebook or any other type of social media and barely uses any of those sites. She also stays at home more than the average girl and hates going to parties or socialize too much. I've heard this from her classmates and makes really hard to know what she's doing or thinking.
Anyway, we just talk a couple of hours from know and she send me a picture of her room wall. She has this art and frames in an artistic way. I was surprised of someone seending something so personal to a person they barely know. You would think girls are very reluctant to share anything with some guy that could be a creep. Maybe she's that innocent or maybe she just trust me. I don't know. I'm really tempted to take this as my first serious shot, I really think I have a chance here but the bad part is that I can read her, I can't know what she's thinking or how she would react to certain things. I have no idea how her mind opperates and I'm really afraid of being rejected by someone I have to see every day at least for 2 more years. She's like this werid jewel that somehow most guys are too "normal" to engage with. And she's just standing there with no visible obstacle. I feel she has some circle of friends out of UNI with her weird tates but she barely post anything of FB, so is all mystery.
Well, I just wanted to get this out of my chest. I don't know how to handle this but I only have to keep investigating until is too late. Anyone who has some tip or theory about this; I'll be glad to hear it.
(Sorry for the spelling and grammar)
I got to play in one of her songs one time and I was able to get her whatsapp without asking We talk sometimes since then but I'm always concious of not pushing too hard or coming as desperate. I always think what I type and I'm concerned of not screwing up with some stupid comment. The problem is she's kinda reclusive and sometimes hard to find. The other day I noticed it was her birthday but she didn't had her facebook activated for it, so only her family and close friends remembered. I thought this was some kind of way of staying in the dark with regards to people. She doesn't like facebook or any other type of social media and barely uses any of those sites. She also stays at home more than the average girl and hates going to parties or socialize too much. I've heard this from her classmates and makes really hard to know what she's doing or thinking.
Anyway, we just talk a couple of hours from know and she send me a picture of her room wall. She has this art and frames in an artistic way. I was surprised of someone seending something so personal to a person they barely know. You would think girls are very reluctant to share anything with some guy that could be a creep. Maybe she's that innocent or maybe she just trust me. I don't know. I'm really tempted to take this as my first serious shot, I really think I have a chance here but the bad part is that I can read her, I can't know what she's thinking or how she would react to certain things. I have no idea how her mind opperates and I'm really afraid of being rejected by someone I have to see every day at least for 2 more years. She's like this werid jewel that somehow most guys are too "normal" to engage with. And she's just standing there with no visible obstacle. I feel she has some circle of friends out of UNI with her weird tates but she barely post anything of FB, so is all mystery.
Well, I just wanted to get this out of my chest. I don't know how to handle this but I only have to keep investigating until is too late. Anyone who has some tip or theory about this; I'll be glad to hear it.
(Sorry for the spelling and grammar)