GambleInTheWind
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Hello this is my second post here. First being my introduction. So here's my problem. I know why I'm alone. I was bullied a lot in school. And even once at work. Two years ago my best friend of 14 years me and him split. For me it's hard to make friends becasue I feel like I don't want t trust again. Let someone in. And I let that effect me at work with this pretty co worker. Who I could tell really liked me. Me and her was flirting with each other. I even asked her out. Maybe giving it a shot. But then something came to mind. About trusting. It's like my heart wants to love. But my mind is telling me no becasue of past experiences. So...I stopped talking her. Ignored her. She would roll her eyes, when I walked by. And other ways showing she was mad. I know getting hurt is part of life. But I did try to make it up. When I toke my last break, I grew a pair of balls. And bought some red roses(well fake roses I mean I didn't have no where to put the big ones at) I would hope she would accept it. So I saw her gave it to her. She said thanks. I didn't want to make any drama. So I just gave it to her and walked away. I saw last week, we were alone. She was smiling, fr the first time. We both started to talk But she said "you go first" I wanted to tell her. I'm sorry for pushinh her away. That it's hard for me to trust. But I didn't say nothing. I said "Never mind.." She walked away asking "are you sure?" Before she walked out she looked back. I apologize if I misspelled or its or cramped together doing this from my iPod.