stinky_cheese_dude
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I recently did a course of therapy with a counsellor. Worked on some anger issues (still have), social anxieties and poor social skills (still got 'em) as well as a few other issues.
My only point of success for me is finally having the courage to get out of my shitty career choice and do something I feel valued and able to do well. I'm glad about doing that - it will reduce stress in so many ways, although the variable income may not be good.
So - the counsellor was happy with my progress. I really had no idea what they meant. Apparently my willingness to talk to a professional like they were an actual friend was probably misconstrued as 'progress'.
I don't have the friends still. I made a few online ones, but they've drifted into interests which I really don't like. I still keep in touch with them of sorts - I doubt that would continue.
The biggest social outlet for me in my adult life was drinking. That's out - I was killing myself with that. People only liked me for the crazy honeysuckle I did. Once I stopped, I lost people there. The biggest social outlet in my school days was tabletop wargames & rpg's - not exactly a major hobby for most these days, and even less so around me.
I tried many routes to finding people who do this, and I don't have to drive for an hour to meet - all at the suggestion of my counsellor. But the nearest games group is 40 miles away.
So I'm still not getting any chance to practice any form of socialising, especially with something I can relate to (not into sports, etc - I sadly have a very narrow range).
And yet my counsellor's final report was I made excellent progress. Just can't see how. And now I've exhausted the NHS therapy route (really hoped to get a referral to get a year's counselling) I just don't know what to do.
Sorry this seems like a rant, just got nowhere to put this out where I could get feedback.
My only point of success for me is finally having the courage to get out of my shitty career choice and do something I feel valued and able to do well. I'm glad about doing that - it will reduce stress in so many ways, although the variable income may not be good.
So - the counsellor was happy with my progress. I really had no idea what they meant. Apparently my willingness to talk to a professional like they were an actual friend was probably misconstrued as 'progress'.
I don't have the friends still. I made a few online ones, but they've drifted into interests which I really don't like. I still keep in touch with them of sorts - I doubt that would continue.
The biggest social outlet for me in my adult life was drinking. That's out - I was killing myself with that. People only liked me for the crazy honeysuckle I did. Once I stopped, I lost people there. The biggest social outlet in my school days was tabletop wargames & rpg's - not exactly a major hobby for most these days, and even less so around me.
I tried many routes to finding people who do this, and I don't have to drive for an hour to meet - all at the suggestion of my counsellor. But the nearest games group is 40 miles away.
So I'm still not getting any chance to practice any form of socialising, especially with something I can relate to (not into sports, etc - I sadly have a very narrow range).
And yet my counsellor's final report was I made excellent progress. Just can't see how. And now I've exhausted the NHS therapy route (really hoped to get a referral to get a year's counselling) I just don't know what to do.
Sorry this seems like a rant, just got nowhere to put this out where I could get feedback.