azuresky96
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I've been feeling so miserable for the past few weeks. I don't know how to cope with loneliness. It just eats me up on the inside and I feel like I'll never be good enough to be someone's friend. I like to think that I'm better off on my own so I don't have to bother other people but deep inside I know that I want to be able to connect with one person at least.
How do you go about putting yourself out there when you're probably going to get hurt/forgotten in the end? You can't stop someone from walking out of your life or pretend that you never existed but it hurts a lot. You see them moving on with their lives with new people and you're just there beating yourself up and too scared to come out to the world again. That's just how it is right? Things don't always go the way you want it to be. You just have to deal with it. It's easier to type this out than actually do it
Be it online or real life, I would always ask myself if (1) it's worth it trying to get to know someone or (2) if someone would even like me for who I am. I don't feel confident at all but I try to make a good first impression. For example, there are subreddits like r/needafriend and I would think soo many times if I should even message someone or not. Online relationships are more fragile but there are fun and really nice people from some random part of the world who would hear you out even if it's temporary. When it comes to real life, I get really awkward and I tend to make people feel very uncomfortable. I don't know what to say to people most of the time. I want to say something but I'm scared if I were to say something dumb.
Recently, one guy texted me and asked if I wanted to go out for dinner with him to get to know each other more but I declined. I blocked his number for some reason. I understand that both parties have to put in time and effort to make something work but I don't feel like I'm never going to be ready for it or open up to people again. I feel like I'm missing out a lot in life but it's all my fault. I can keep on beating myself up or you know...just meet people and see how it goes?
How do you go about putting yourself out there when you're probably going to get hurt/forgotten in the end? You can't stop someone from walking out of your life or pretend that you never existed but it hurts a lot. You see them moving on with their lives with new people and you're just there beating yourself up and too scared to come out to the world again. That's just how it is right? Things don't always go the way you want it to be. You just have to deal with it. It's easier to type this out than actually do it
Be it online or real life, I would always ask myself if (1) it's worth it trying to get to know someone or (2) if someone would even like me for who I am. I don't feel confident at all but I try to make a good first impression. For example, there are subreddits like r/needafriend and I would think soo many times if I should even message someone or not. Online relationships are more fragile but there are fun and really nice people from some random part of the world who would hear you out even if it's temporary. When it comes to real life, I get really awkward and I tend to make people feel very uncomfortable. I don't know what to say to people most of the time. I want to say something but I'm scared if I were to say something dumb.
Recently, one guy texted me and asked if I wanted to go out for dinner with him to get to know each other more but I declined. I blocked his number for some reason. I understand that both parties have to put in time and effort to make something work but I don't feel like I'm never going to be ready for it or open up to people again. I feel like I'm missing out a lot in life but it's all my fault. I can keep on beating myself up or you know...just meet people and see how it goes?