Hello
I’m typing this just as a way to let off some steam really.
I’m a 44 year old female.
I would love to meet someone and have a long, loving relationship but it seems very unlikely that it will ever happen, for various reasons.
I’ve had Panic Disorder and Anxiety Disorder since I was 20 years old and for the last 8 years or so I’ve had agoraphobia (although the agoraphobia has improved over the last year). I can now go out but I get more panicky the further away from home I get, so I don’t travel too far from home.
I’m unemployed because of my anxiety problems and I rarely go out to socialise anymore.
And on top of all that, I’m gay. I really, really wish I wasn’t. I’m still in the closet because I’m too scared to tell my family about my sexuality. I think my Mother would freak out, she’s made many derogatory comments about gay people in the past. It would make my anxiety so much worse if she reacted badly and I don’t think I could cope with that.
I’m sure if I met the right person and had their support, I would be brave enough to tell my family the truth about my sexuality, but for now, I keep quiet.
There are so many barriers preventing me from ever meeting someone special, particularly my mental health problems, and as time passes by, I feel my chances of ever finding someone to love are slipping away.
I’m terrified of getting old and being alone.
I feel so scared and lonely sometimes.
I’m typing this just as a way to let off some steam really.
I’m a 44 year old female.
I would love to meet someone and have a long, loving relationship but it seems very unlikely that it will ever happen, for various reasons.
I’ve had Panic Disorder and Anxiety Disorder since I was 20 years old and for the last 8 years or so I’ve had agoraphobia (although the agoraphobia has improved over the last year). I can now go out but I get more panicky the further away from home I get, so I don’t travel too far from home.
I’m unemployed because of my anxiety problems and I rarely go out to socialise anymore.
And on top of all that, I’m gay. I really, really wish I wasn’t. I’m still in the closet because I’m too scared to tell my family about my sexuality. I think my Mother would freak out, she’s made many derogatory comments about gay people in the past. It would make my anxiety so much worse if she reacted badly and I don’t think I could cope with that.
I’m sure if I met the right person and had their support, I would be brave enough to tell my family the truth about my sexuality, but for now, I keep quiet.
There are so many barriers preventing me from ever meeting someone special, particularly my mental health problems, and as time passes by, I feel my chances of ever finding someone to love are slipping away.
I’m terrified of getting old and being alone.
I feel so scared and lonely sometimes.