dn560
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hello all or whoever cares to read, so i started a new school in september and on the first day met a girl who i followed cuz we were both lost on our first day. since then shes been in most of my classes, she sits nex to me in class, actually knows my name, and sits with me during lunch as well. as someone who trusts no one im not sure if to consider her a friend cuz most girls ignore me and only use to to get something. but his girl mostly talks about other guys to me, constantly mentions her boyfriend that hes an ******* (yet shes still with him) and talks about her crushes with me and tells me her problems. the thing is i kinda feel like i like her. the part that eats me the most is that when ppl talk behind my back and make fun of her saying im her bf she gets grosssed out and really pissed. i know im ugly, short and bald but it really hurts to know that im not appealing to her and that im so ugly i gross her out. it also hurts when she talks about her crushes cuz those guys she crush on are the total opposite to me. i mean like whats wrong with me :'( the only reason i think i like her is becuase im not around too many girls and well since shes around i got attached. it really painful to know that someone i like thinks im gross and ugly yet hangs around me. this makes me really depressed to know that i can never ever be part of her life im just some stupid idiot that cracks jokes and entertains her when shes bored. it breaks my ******* heart i cry about it like a ***** but in the end i just might all together stop talking to her. the internal pain is too much adding to my depression and anxiety. shes just another reason added to the list to end myself new years night.