I don't know if I mentioned I was going to therapy since june. Strangely enough, I was told there was nothing wrong with me in mental terms, and last week I had a meeting with the head psychologist from where I'm going. I had a session in a "mirror room" and everything went fine. Just some days ago my therapist told me I may need to ask for psichiatric evaluation; nothing bad, just an option. It seems they want me to abstain from bad thougs, I.e nihilism and lack of meaning. I asked her if that was the only option they considered and said yes. I was shocked and kinda dissapointed seeing how I was left just one more session. I recently also had a very frustrating issue with my dental treatment. It really struck me since I was told that I was "ok", and in both cases I was reaching the end of that process. Now they also want to continue the therapy the next year. It's still my only choice to go with the "drugs", but I'm almost certain won't. I told her my thoughts are mine and are uncomfortable because they are hard to swallow... but they are true. The truth is more important than feeling well and taking some pills won't change reality. I guess it was true psychology was made mostly to normalize behavior.