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*I've been drinking just a little (only have 3 cans, one 5.6% alcohols, 2 8% alcohols, no other alcohols of mine in the house, but I'm a little sensitive so hopefully I'm not too off track in this post)*
To keep the story short, basically my wife and I was trying to reconcile and I later found out that she was still visiting her boyfriend 'as a friend' the whole time. She had cheated on me with that guy earlier in the year. The day I found out, I didn't tell her that I wanted to divorce right away. But it kinda built up and now I am just ******* done with her. I'm trying to tell her that I do not want to get back together at all and she is just not getting the message. So that mean I'll have to file for the divorce on my own and hopefully have the city waive my filing fees of $200 since I'm struggling financially quite a bit. Sigh....
I really really miss sex...
Unfortunately this means that I'll have to face the dilemma that is being a single deaf guy. I don't do pickup lines since I can't even be sure if I'm speaking it properly. I don't know how to communicate easily without having to switch to some text based communication or hopefully the other party can signs. Deaf people have the unfortunate tendency of dating within their small social circle simply due to communication difficulties. I can speaks pretty well but I can't hear at all, so the other party always feels like they are doing all of the work to accommodate me. This means that most deaf ladies in the deaf communities as far as the next state or two over are usually already in a relationship.
I'm soooooo tempted to just say fresia it all and just escape. My possessions are few enough that I can literally just move into my van and just drive away. Hell, I've been sleeping on a portable cot and I have all of my camping supplies in the van (in case of emergencies) so I can live out of the van right now if not for the lowering temp of the winter. I've honestly been inspired by the idea of vandwelling and have been working on reducing my possessions enough to be able to do that easily. At least just for the summer when I'm off work so I can camp far more easily.
I really just want to be ******* done with my marriage so I can finally move on and TRY for something legitimate. I really don't know what to do here right now. I'm just done with it all.
To keep the story short, basically my wife and I was trying to reconcile and I later found out that she was still visiting her boyfriend 'as a friend' the whole time. She had cheated on me with that guy earlier in the year. The day I found out, I didn't tell her that I wanted to divorce right away. But it kinda built up and now I am just ******* done with her. I'm trying to tell her that I do not want to get back together at all and she is just not getting the message. So that mean I'll have to file for the divorce on my own and hopefully have the city waive my filing fees of $200 since I'm struggling financially quite a bit. Sigh....
I really really miss sex...
Unfortunately this means that I'll have to face the dilemma that is being a single deaf guy. I don't do pickup lines since I can't even be sure if I'm speaking it properly. I don't know how to communicate easily without having to switch to some text based communication or hopefully the other party can signs. Deaf people have the unfortunate tendency of dating within their small social circle simply due to communication difficulties. I can speaks pretty well but I can't hear at all, so the other party always feels like they are doing all of the work to accommodate me. This means that most deaf ladies in the deaf communities as far as the next state or two over are usually already in a relationship.
I'm soooooo tempted to just say fresia it all and just escape. My possessions are few enough that I can literally just move into my van and just drive away. Hell, I've been sleeping on a portable cot and I have all of my camping supplies in the van (in case of emergencies) so I can live out of the van right now if not for the lowering temp of the winter. I've honestly been inspired by the idea of vandwelling and have been working on reducing my possessions enough to be able to do that easily. At least just for the summer when I'm off work so I can camp far more easily.
I really just want to be ******* done with my marriage so I can finally move on and TRY for something legitimate. I really don't know what to do here right now. I'm just done with it all.