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lol. Yes, mr. I my share of internet porn and still have a strong desire to go to sites such as that. But, that is the thing. I am trying to draw the line and limit the online porn and persue real life interinteractions. Because frankly it's not helping much in terms of mood. Or being a motivator. In other words it can have the opposite affect I want at this stage>
I like hearing that. I'm not a big fan or cheerleader of porn, it contaminates your mind and in your state, that is the last thing you want. I feel all porn will do is cause greater frustration, because 1) What you see, you aren't going to get. 2) What you see isn't even the real thing. 3) In the end, you will feel empty, images are no replacement.
Somehow, you have to begin focusing on meeting your needs using a different system, because the one you're using isn't working. Adapt and innovate some new methods for meeting women. All that old thinking advice about volunteering, actually has a ring of truth to it. The problem is if your motives for volunteering is to strictly meet women, it will be written all over your face. Plan B, I recommend online dating which I'm guessing you're doing. The good thing about being unsuccessful in that game, you have the freedom to move about and use different resources and methods without too many consequences.
The focus on sex however, I'm going to tell you from experience, if that's what you are looking for, that's what you'll receive. And it makes the relationship icky, empty, and I had to cut women out of my life like a light switch because I couldn't stand the feeling. It's an easy trap (habit) to get into, dating and ***ing, and I realized at one point how much valuable time I was wasting.
Try to put companionship in the chair above sex if you can, I know it's sometimes not easy to do. Especially when getting sex is almost a done deal, I had to exercise better boundaries because I realized I had developed a bad pattern.