Not sure where to post this so sorry if it's not in the right place.
I'm aware people think about suicide and think about ways to kill themselves but over the past several months I've been experiencing things differently. I 'zone out' often while driving or reading or doing menial tasks and I picture myself committing suicide. It's like watching a video in my brain that I can't turn off. It's often graphic and violent, and it's not the same vision all the time, the way I kill myself varies.
Now, I don't think I want to die, I have in the past had suicidal thoughts and I've done a fair bit of self harm. But I'm happier than ever most the time now and I don't want to kill myself so I can't understand why this keeps happening.
I just wondered if anyone else has experienced these kinds of unwanted 'visions'. And any suggestions on how to stop them? They're getting kind of torturing. :/
Thank you in advance.
I'm aware people think about suicide and think about ways to kill themselves but over the past several months I've been experiencing things differently. I 'zone out' often while driving or reading or doing menial tasks and I picture myself committing suicide. It's like watching a video in my brain that I can't turn off. It's often graphic and violent, and it's not the same vision all the time, the way I kill myself varies.
Now, I don't think I want to die, I have in the past had suicidal thoughts and I've done a fair bit of self harm. But I'm happier than ever most the time now and I don't want to kill myself so I can't understand why this keeps happening.
I just wondered if anyone else has experienced these kinds of unwanted 'visions'. And any suggestions on how to stop them? They're getting kind of torturing. :/
Thank you in advance.