H
haywud
Guest
I'm cursed to live alone, I think that's pretty obvious at this point. I've spent most of my life without having someone, then when I finally did find someone I let my problems ruin it. I've always felt that if I had someone I would be able to manage my problems a lot easier, and for a while that's the way it was I was genuinely happy. Then this happened and it just started a downward spiral once again. Then other things happened and everything fell apart, and I let it all come between me and the one person that actually did care about me.
Now I'm all alone again, and right back to those doubts that I can ever find someone. I look at myself and look at my life, and I just don't see how anyone would ever be interested in me. I just need to accept the fact that I'll die alone. I was fine with being alone for so long, so I need to get back to that. This loneliness is the cause of my depression, and if I can just learn to accept it then I can finally stop the tears. I'm tired of crying, so if I can't learn to live with the loneliness then I just don't want to live.
Now I'm all alone again, and right back to those doubts that I can ever find someone. I look at myself and look at my life, and I just don't see how anyone would ever be interested in me. I just need to accept the fact that I'll die alone. I was fine with being alone for so long, so I need to get back to that. This loneliness is the cause of my depression, and if I can just learn to accept it then I can finally stop the tears. I'm tired of crying, so if I can't learn to live with the loneliness then I just don't want to live.