rubbleworker
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Hello,
Over the years, my loneliness has been getting deeper .. It's like a constant buzz in my left ear .. And I have being having this feeling that I need to reach out to someone, before it gets me even more crazier than I already am ..
I have my family .. and there is really nothing wrong with my life .. but then the nagging sadness lies heavy on me most of the time .. at times, I think that if I were to stand still, the sadness would drip down my body and form a puddle around my feet .. And I would get stuck in it, unable to move .. I wish I had someone to talk to ..
I work in an office of 35 people and most of my day, I am surrounded by people, though much younger than me .. But then mostly I feel there is really no one to talk to .. And funny thing is I do talk to lot of people everyday on my job .. So, it is kinda an oxymoron-ish and perhaps, it’s just me ..
Guys usually have fantasies about movie-stars or models or something like that .. my biggest fantasy revolves around meeting someone during a trip or just striking up a conversation with someone I meet at a restaurant and we ending up being friends or catching up for coffee sometime .. I did meet a lady on a bus once couple of years back, and we did talk for sometime .. But then somehow, she just didn’t seem keen to remain in touch and drifted away .. I guess that is the most natural way things would progress .. my fantasy would have to be a one-in-a-million exception. But still, I go to sleep everyday wishing I had a friend .. And the first thought that comes to mind when I wake up is "Wish I had one good friend!” .. Perhaps, I am obsessed with my loneliness .. I am having an illicit relationship with my loneliness - I hope my wife doesn’t find out !!
I found the “A Lonely Life” portal when I was searching for ways to beat loneliness .. And I just thought I will give it a shot by posting here ..
I may not be a frequent visitor, but I do plan to visit here at least once in 2-3 days ..
- Benny
Over the years, my loneliness has been getting deeper .. It's like a constant buzz in my left ear .. And I have being having this feeling that I need to reach out to someone, before it gets me even more crazier than I already am ..
I have my family .. and there is really nothing wrong with my life .. but then the nagging sadness lies heavy on me most of the time .. at times, I think that if I were to stand still, the sadness would drip down my body and form a puddle around my feet .. And I would get stuck in it, unable to move .. I wish I had someone to talk to ..
I work in an office of 35 people and most of my day, I am surrounded by people, though much younger than me .. But then mostly I feel there is really no one to talk to .. And funny thing is I do talk to lot of people everyday on my job .. So, it is kinda an oxymoron-ish and perhaps, it’s just me ..
Guys usually have fantasies about movie-stars or models or something like that .. my biggest fantasy revolves around meeting someone during a trip or just striking up a conversation with someone I meet at a restaurant and we ending up being friends or catching up for coffee sometime .. I did meet a lady on a bus once couple of years back, and we did talk for sometime .. But then somehow, she just didn’t seem keen to remain in touch and drifted away .. I guess that is the most natural way things would progress .. my fantasy would have to be a one-in-a-million exception. But still, I go to sleep everyday wishing I had a friend .. And the first thought that comes to mind when I wake up is "Wish I had one good friend!” .. Perhaps, I am obsessed with my loneliness .. I am having an illicit relationship with my loneliness - I hope my wife doesn’t find out !!
I found the “A Lonely Life” portal when I was searching for ways to beat loneliness .. And I just thought I will give it a shot by posting here ..
I may not be a frequent visitor, but I do plan to visit here at least once in 2-3 days ..
- Benny
