dn560
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i think im at my worst stage of depression. its never been this bad before, i find myself listening to sad music and just crying all he time, my heart feels like someone stuck a knife in it, my mind races at night or whenver im alone i feel like i wanna scream but cant im all choked up and so furious i just wanna take out my frustration on something. ever since that girl befriended me i got too attached ended up liking her but she used me got what she wanted and left me high and dry. at first i thought she cared, she became part of my world that i didnt discover until i met her and when she left i felt like she took that part with her. its hurts so much all the feelings , all the effort and all the times i spent with her all just for her selfish gain and i like the typical loser got influenced by her beauty and "personality" fell for her . adding to all the other heartbreaks i had in my life from being diagnosed with incurable diseases, to being kicked out of university, parents hating mei actually thought i had a genuine friend but no. rips me the fresia up inside every time i think about her i cry thinking about her, she meant alot to me and idk....im so sad all i want is someone to love me and care for me soomeone to watch my back be by my side to pick me up when i fall i wish i was better, i wish i was healthy, i wish i was good looking, why the fresia do bad things happen to me? what the fresia did i do? idk i dont wanna turn to alcohol or getting high to numb the pain but its unbearable what do i do? i feel like im begging for help but no one wants to help me...sigh