Desperado said:
Yes I want to bash his face in. Maybe the question is why I hate the man so much. I have money. More than enough to pay rent. I guess what I really want is for him to demand the money from me so I can bash his face in. I guess it's all about power and control for me, not money or anything else. That power and control and authority. Who has it, and who has it not. If you think you have power and control over me, watch what happens next.
I try to be mostly peaceful but there are times where I feel the same way, where there's someone I think could use a good beating. I hate feeling like someone has power and control over me too. But we can't go around beating people up because we live in civilization, and without it we couldn't have nice things, much fun, or even peace of mind.
One thing that helps me get through situations I don't like is if I know it's temporary, and when it will end. Like if you know when you can leave this apartment, you can count down the days and look forward to living in a new, better place. Then all you have to do is wait.
Some things I do when I get angry and need to calm down include:
- meditation
- sleeping it off
- a cup of tea
- a snack
- a beer or two, but not a lot
- listening to music
- watching something funny
- a walk
- a run
- a bike ride
- I haven't lifted weights in a while but I imagine it helps
- cleaning, sorting, throwing things out
- playing guitar
- playing video games
- talking to someone if they feel like listening
Basically anything that either distracts me or makes me feel less alone with my anger usually helps the mood to pass.