Legendary93
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Hello , I dont know where to start from because I have so many questions without answers and im really confused , i feel like im stuck in a dark hole without escape. But mainly Im gonna ask for your help or someone like me share how do they live like that. The problem is that I dont talk much (i just prefer to be a listener) and i have very few ppl to talk with. I had gf only once in my life and our relationship wasn't going well and I think its cause of my problem. Actually it wasn't really a problem before , but my family kept telling me that im weird and I wont find any friends / girlfriend (I have friends and I can talk with them but most of the time Depends on my mood , sometimes i can talk a lot and most of the time Im quiet and have no feelings at all).So after my family were saying that to me all that years while my puberty it became a Complex to me , an issue. Every single time I must talk with someone on the phone for example (especially if its a girl) or talking face to face my head is fully empty i start getting nervous and feels like my own voice is repeating in my head ( SAY SOMETHING , DONT BE QUIET , THEY'll FIND OUT THAT YOU'RE QUIET AND WILL SAY THAT YOU're BORING / WEIRD AND SO ON.) So I met a girl 2 months ago and when we're together its usual for me to hug her , kiss her (sometimes) , talk with her (we're not in relationship but we both like each other) and I just cant express any feeling. Im fully stonedface and super serious and Im just waiting for people to start a discuss so we can talk about something anyway I wont say a single word I just have an empty head. I can talk freely only with people i Know for long time and Im not nervous around them (for example my friends).I know my problem sounds really annoying and cliche but I really wanna escape from this hole. I feel like no one cares what im thinking and they're something more than me and that i have serious issues which cant be fixed.. I want a normal life , Im still a virgin (im 20 btw) had gf only once , i think im not ugly im tall and fit / slim guy I think thats even attractive Im 1.93 cm tall and im 75 kg. And many ppl dont believe me that i didnt have more than 1 gf or that im still a virgin. And im pretty sure that its cause of my issue. People think im weird and Very serious but I am funny around my friends and can talk without any problems.. As i said im confused i dont know what's my problem is it a shyness or what??