Hello...
Not trying to be a drama queen or something , but there are certain types of people that i find hard to deal with , and in a second im gonna explain why and which kind.
First of all , i don't think i'm a bad person or an a-hole , i'm trying to be positive and supporting the people who i see need and deserve support around me. But for some strange reason from school till today i always seem to get a-holes , jerks and idiots draw them to me like a magnet. Sometimes they wish we should be friends , and don't have bad intensions , but in other times some of them are abusive and trying to compete with me (because of how i look good to others and they find me interesting , so they look at me like some competition for them and are envy) .... LOL ! So why i always draw people like these to me? Yes , im a bit distant , different from others and not acting like a jerk and some clown , and people want to get to know me , but even so these so called bad people (toxic , a-holes and even jealous haters) keep coming back.. Yes online it's easy because with 1 click you can forget it all , but in real life it's totally different story.
Now let's not get too dramatic and think of what and why i'm lacking to have the nerve and courage to deal with them? Maybe some of them i shall befriend (maybe they are not all so bad as i though) , but for others that are clearly like an enemy to me without any particular reason... I don't get why that happens. Do i need to get the loudest and clown acting dude to not be 'picked as quiet and easy to be taken advantage of' ? I certainly can keep my calm at some of these situations , but let's say things get more serious - like threats , trash talk and etc... i think i'm not used to that kind of conversations and maybe that's why i hate that. I've been also raised to not get into confrontations and fights with others , but rather to do it with words. Still , i think some situations can't get without a fight but not in work , not everytime! Fight should be the last thing you do and if it's necessary , but that shouldn't stop me if i want to join a boxing club or other sport. On the other side , i can't look always at the people and the others to be the 'bad ones', maybe its something in me? Maybe im the one who needs change in behavior and thinking , and dealing with these kind of situations and people. Maybe i need for my character to get strenghen and face my demons
P.S , aside from the topic there are many ideas i got , this year i hope i can get more talkative to new people , friends , and what i like and even uncomfortable situations , not stay away but rather face the fears.
Let's hope things go well and people will notice that too , but because of myself , not only because of them
It's cool to have a forum like this , but also taking responsible actions and changing things is what it's for , anway i really like that there are so many understanding and great people. Hope at the end of the year i can rite my progress here , hehe
Not trying to be a drama queen or something , but there are certain types of people that i find hard to deal with , and in a second im gonna explain why and which kind.
First of all , i don't think i'm a bad person or an a-hole , i'm trying to be positive and supporting the people who i see need and deserve support around me. But for some strange reason from school till today i always seem to get a-holes , jerks and idiots draw them to me like a magnet. Sometimes they wish we should be friends , and don't have bad intensions , but in other times some of them are abusive and trying to compete with me (because of how i look good to others and they find me interesting , so they look at me like some competition for them and are envy) .... LOL ! So why i always draw people like these to me? Yes , im a bit distant , different from others and not acting like a jerk and some clown , and people want to get to know me , but even so these so called bad people (toxic , a-holes and even jealous haters) keep coming back.. Yes online it's easy because with 1 click you can forget it all , but in real life it's totally different story.
Now let's not get too dramatic and think of what and why i'm lacking to have the nerve and courage to deal with them? Maybe some of them i shall befriend (maybe they are not all so bad as i though) , but for others that are clearly like an enemy to me without any particular reason... I don't get why that happens. Do i need to get the loudest and clown acting dude to not be 'picked as quiet and easy to be taken advantage of' ? I certainly can keep my calm at some of these situations , but let's say things get more serious - like threats , trash talk and etc... i think i'm not used to that kind of conversations and maybe that's why i hate that. I've been also raised to not get into confrontations and fights with others , but rather to do it with words. Still , i think some situations can't get without a fight but not in work , not everytime! Fight should be the last thing you do and if it's necessary , but that shouldn't stop me if i want to join a boxing club or other sport. On the other side , i can't look always at the people and the others to be the 'bad ones', maybe its something in me? Maybe im the one who needs change in behavior and thinking , and dealing with these kind of situations and people. Maybe i need for my character to get strenghen and face my demons
P.S , aside from the topic there are many ideas i got , this year i hope i can get more talkative to new people , friends , and what i like and even uncomfortable situations , not stay away but rather face the fears.
Let's hope things go well and people will notice that too , but because of myself , not only because of them
It's cool to have a forum like this , but also taking responsible actions and changing things is what it's for , anway i really like that there are so many understanding and great people. Hope at the end of the year i can rite my progress here , hehe