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haywud
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I've got to the point where nothing matters. I have no job or anything, and I'm not sure it even matters anymore anyway. I have no friends outside of the internet, and the ones I do have online I barely talk with anymore because I've basically given up on everything. I can't do anything for myself, so no idea what's left for me. I can't kill myself, that's another thing I can't do so I'm just stuck living this failure of a life. I think if I had someone around me to push and motivate me I might be able to overcome this, but all my real life friends gave up on me and even my family just watches as I rot away. Since I didn't have the courage to actually speak up and say anything I tried writing a letter to my mom about how I feel, complete waste of time since she pretty much told me I had to do things myself. She also completely ignored the fact that I mentioned having suicidal thoughts, so that's wonderful. I don't know what else to do, where to begin, or anything. I've had so much advice given to me from people online, but I just fail to do it because of a complete lack of confidence and motivation. I just don't know anymore.