AFrozenSoul
Well-known member
Always fun to go back and see what I have not been at for a while. I guess I just need to get some anxiety out. I just lost my job again, this is twice and I did not even make it through the year. I was told it was cut backs and changes but... yeah I guess I am just taking up space and I knew one guy hated me on my team for some reason. I have been to 4 interviews thus far and no takers. My money is only going to last another 3 months at best... and... yeah I just spiral spiral spiral.... my last hunt took me 6 months.... who knows...
I have crashed and burned over these past years... I know it is all my fault.... all the weight I lost I gained back and then some... I have sleep apnea and well... all sorts of stuff that comes with being fat. I have even taken up the vice of drinking lots of beer... I cannot commit to anything or do anything right... I do not know... I should do something, I cannot fit in chairs anymore... I broke a chair in a recruiters office... I cannot fit in the chairs on planes or at the movies... it is a struggle just to stand up or do other necessary things.
Yeah... to top that all off I am anxious to see if I will get an interview next week and if I got a job from last week... and.... it is just hard to keep your head high and have confidence... especially when you can pass coding tests and phone screens with ease and then some how bomb things in the face to face.
I do not know.. I am just complaining... I have been sitting staring at a wall for an hour that is how depressed I am right now.
I have crashed and burned over these past years... I know it is all my fault.... all the weight I lost I gained back and then some... I have sleep apnea and well... all sorts of stuff that comes with being fat. I have even taken up the vice of drinking lots of beer... I cannot commit to anything or do anything right... I do not know... I should do something, I cannot fit in chairs anymore... I broke a chair in a recruiters office... I cannot fit in the chairs on planes or at the movies... it is a struggle just to stand up or do other necessary things.
Yeah... to top that all off I am anxious to see if I will get an interview next week and if I got a job from last week... and.... it is just hard to keep your head high and have confidence... especially when you can pass coding tests and phone screens with ease and then some how bomb things in the face to face.
I do not know.. I am just complaining... I have been sitting staring at a wall for an hour that is how depressed I am right now.