shawn81
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Last November (November 15, 2016 to be exact) a date I'll never forget I lost the love of my life and my soulmate to her addiction. I found my beautiful princess dead on her coach, heroine overdose. I was and am to this day still destroyed by it. I had been helping her get better even had at one point where she was sober for 6 months and was making a lot of head way but then relapse happened during a stressful time in her mind and she went back harder than before. I had made thousands of promises to help her to get her help to make things better and I promised to save her. It's what she wanted she felt she couldn't do it alone, she said that if I kept my end of the promise she would give it 110%. I failed. 11/15/16 I went to her house to check on her and she was gone. I had made arrangements for her to go to rehab in January when I got insurance. She didn't make it to it. I failed her I broke our promise and I couldn't save her. I've been to therapy since then and been told not to blame myself that it was a'll beyond my control. But I can't help but think of all the what it's. I've had a couple of relationships since then but I'm so depressed and broken it's been with girls only out to use me, and I allowed it to happen to keep me from falling back into severe depression I think of her daily, I can't push myself to change my wallpaper on my phone, delete the text, or put away the pictures. Every day my heart breaks again and again because my princess is gone because I failed...