Osiris
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What I mean is, a little while ago I posted a thread called (I'm Done Being "Nice"). And ever since I've been self-evaluating and thinking, what I've realised I think is true. My family and friends might disagree but I don't let them know the real me anyway. I think I'm a horrible, digusting human being. Everything I do is with an ulterior motive, I don't really "care" like other people do. I just want to have a bit of fun then die! I've never had a girlfriend for 3 reasons: I'm shallow, I don't like sharing, and the final isn't a selfish reason but I know they should go and find a man who wants to die at 80 or something. I'd rather die before I'm 40.
I'll give a quick confession of things I've done lately. Made friends with rich people just for job opportunities, hanging around people just because I fancy a family member(Two different people in the last 3 months, one was a friends sister the other is a friends daughter! "My age"). Made 2 accounts on a different forum, I befriended someone on one account then I was arguing with them on the other. Oh! And worst of all I'm trying to find a new job even though my dad wants me to work with him and I've pretended I'm happy with it...
The reason I asked this is because I feel I've spent a lot of my life being the "shy kid" when I was naturally an *******, but wanting people to like me got in the way. I feel like a lot of socially anxious people are probably ******** but scared to admit it to themselves and would rather play a victim. "She was shallow, she only cares about the money"....you only cared about the tits! People are forgetting to look at themselves! When you point a finger, three point back at you for a reason. I guess I'm just fed up with everything, but all I see is people blaming others for their own mistakes.
So, rounding this up. How honest are you with yourself? Are you the type of person when things go wrong you blame everyone else but yourself. I really should of just called this "I hate myself" but I thought might as well see how others view themselves. It would be nice to hear if anyone else feels the same. Thank you for reading.
I'll give a quick confession of things I've done lately. Made friends with rich people just for job opportunities, hanging around people just because I fancy a family member(Two different people in the last 3 months, one was a friends sister the other is a friends daughter! "My age"). Made 2 accounts on a different forum, I befriended someone on one account then I was arguing with them on the other. Oh! And worst of all I'm trying to find a new job even though my dad wants me to work with him and I've pretended I'm happy with it...
The reason I asked this is because I feel I've spent a lot of my life being the "shy kid" when I was naturally an *******, but wanting people to like me got in the way. I feel like a lot of socially anxious people are probably ******** but scared to admit it to themselves and would rather play a victim. "She was shallow, she only cares about the money"....you only cared about the tits! People are forgetting to look at themselves! When you point a finger, three point back at you for a reason. I guess I'm just fed up with everything, but all I see is people blaming others for their own mistakes.
So, rounding this up. How honest are you with yourself? Are you the type of person when things go wrong you blame everyone else but yourself. I really should of just called this "I hate myself" but I thought might as well see how others view themselves. It would be nice to hear if anyone else feels the same. Thank you for reading.