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Dear The Lonely
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Dear The Lonely,


I'm sorry you feel that way. I felt that way too, for most of my life. I had childhood friends that I grew distant in middle school as I became more of a loner and, honestly, more of a loser, and they made other friends. My shyness and reservation paralyzed me from talking to new people. Then I was to move to another state and I made a decision that I was going to be the social butterfly. Be someone else. I changed everything about myself and fought hard to get out of my comfort zone and talk to people and try to make acquaintances that might turn into friends. I tried hard to keep in touch with old friends as well- this was in the days before Facebook-and tried to be active in school extracurricular activities. And I succeeded, for a time. I knew most of the kids in my school. I was very involved. And then it happened. I had my nervous breakdown and ended up in the psych ward. And when I came back, I kept to myself and struggled just to keep my head above water at school. And then I moved again. 

Graduated from high school without friends. Attempted suicide on the night before graduation. Went from job to job, going to school part time, trying to make friends and connections. I graduated. Moved again. Went to school for a bachelor's degree in yet another state. Spent many sleepless nights wondering was wrong with me. Graduated and moved yet again. Found a terrible job that sapped my will to live. Found a better job and moved to a city.  Became very physically even as I withdrew in myself. Lost more sleep, until I was going on no sleep for days at a time, still going to work downtown. Hospitalized. Got out and was taken back to my parent's place. Returned back to the state I was in before, living with my sister. For the first time in what seemed like forever, made friends. Found a job again. Looks like a good one this time.


Why do I tell you this, my whole life story? To let you know you are not alone. You may be the lonely, but you are not alone in experiencing isolation. Why am I here? This is why. I crave human connection and interaction. Why are you here? I am posting this in the hopes that you, who found some reason to start searching on the internet for other people experiencing the same loneliness that you feel, will find a reason. So share your reasons for being here, friend. I hope that you aren't too bummed out about your experiences here. You have a reason to be. Sometimes it is hard to find. I hope that I can help.

(Sorry if I am slow to reply. I work full time and sometimes get busy to or too stressed to reply.)  

Sincerely,

The Wallflower
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What a beautiful post, Wallflower.
You are a beautiful person. And i am happy to hear that you seem to be finding some balance.

As to why am I here... Well. Loneliness is a harsh companion. And i'm just hoping that one day, i'll find the one person to take it's place, for good.
kestää.
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(08-13-2017, 05:22 AM)dead Wrote: What a beautiful post, Wallflower.
You are a beautiful person. And i am happy to hear that you seem to be finding some balance.

As to why am I here... Well. Loneliness is a harsh companion. And i'm just hoping that one day, i'll find the one person to take it's place, for good.

Thanks for replying, dead. I am glad that you are here and that you find some solace from your loneliness. Smile
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