Last week I came home to my house on fire. I lost everything, and all five of my dogs died. I wanted to end everything that night. Everything I worked for in my life gone. My best friends, gone. My life revolved around my dogs, their care, their shows, everything was about them.
The news story was titled "Residents OK, but 5 dogs die in house fire." I didn't want to be okay. I wanted to go up with them.
I went to counseling the next day, I called it in as an emergency. I know in the end it will be okay, but the sadness is hitting me tonight. I miss my life.
We're living in an apartment right now, and decided what kind of house we are going to build. It was a complete loss, so we are going to get all of the money from our insurance plan. I know in all of this I am very lucky, but it still sucks.
To be honest I would have just gave up everything if it weren't for one of my dog show friends starting a GoFundMe for us. The money is great, but the kind words and support is worth more than that. People I have never met, or I have only seen in my dog books have been reaching out to us.
And thank you to the few on this forum whose names I saw on there. It means so much to me that you guys care.
I know I'll be okay, and trust me, I am trying to make lemonade out of the lemons that have been handed to me. We'll build a great house, and replace our stuff with better stuff.
Just tonight, I really miss my dogs.
The news story was titled "Residents OK, but 5 dogs die in house fire." I didn't want to be okay. I wanted to go up with them.
I went to counseling the next day, I called it in as an emergency. I know in the end it will be okay, but the sadness is hitting me tonight. I miss my life.
We're living in an apartment right now, and decided what kind of house we are going to build. It was a complete loss, so we are going to get all of the money from our insurance plan. I know in all of this I am very lucky, but it still sucks.
To be honest I would have just gave up everything if it weren't for one of my dog show friends starting a GoFundMe for us. The money is great, but the kind words and support is worth more than that. People I have never met, or I have only seen in my dog books have been reaching out to us.
And thank you to the few on this forum whose names I saw on there. It means so much to me that you guys care.
I know I'll be okay, and trust me, I am trying to make lemonade out of the lemons that have been handed to me. We'll build a great house, and replace our stuff with better stuff.
Just tonight, I really miss my dogs.