TheAnxiousPain
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I got so desperate and asked a guy I used to work with could I crash at his house for a few nights. I told him that I was dealing with family issues and was on the street. He was my only option because I just couldn't take being back around my family. Anyhow, he said "He had sold his house" but that he was willing to help me any other way like helping me move into a place quickly or maybe a room. But I kind of didn't want that because he would had wanted more. I actually felt really bad after asking him for a place to stay. But I know he's not like that, because he like me and has told me in the past that he want to take me under his wing and help me out. So I don't know if he said he sold his house just cause he didn't want me to or if he really did. But I still felt like trash afterwards. I even told him it was out of my character to even ask that, I just was down on my luck and which I am. I honestly just told him that Thanks, but I decided to just move in with my aunt. But now I feel like a bum, I feel like in the future he can always hold this against me. I feel like my family will find out about this and ridicule me for this. The only reason I didn't allow him to buy me a hotel or help me move into a place because I just didn't want what came with it. I got to thinking and just quickly said I was going to move in with my aunt and uncle in Indiana. He said okay and was understanding or whatever. But the thing is, I had to move back into this toxic house with my mom and family. No car and trying to figure out a way to get two jobs and transportation. The goal has been to move to NJ for college, but it is so hard to save up money to do that. I want to be close to NYC and chase dreams. But I feel like a bum, I feel trapped and if I do ever make it to be something BIG in LIFE, I feel like people can recall that I was a bum and my family will ridicule me about it.
