Hey everybody.
I just wanted to unload on this forum about an incident that had a far reaching effect in my life.
In high school when I was in year nine I got into a situation where I stood up for a couple of girls who were copping some racism and I got bullied for months over it. I would have survived this except that the two girls who I thought were my friends after a while began to call me stupid, boring and a dag (aussie slang for socially unrefined).
After a few months I managed to get away from them. But stupid and boring has been in my mind every single day for years and years, I heard it so often. It haunted me. The worst thing was that I felt I couldn't be really angry at them because they were stuck with hanging around this quiet serious girl they couldn't stand. Unlike with the mean girls kind of bullying I really don't feel that I can moralise with them too much over this. I wish however they knew the effect their behaviour has had on my life. I've had a bit of bullying to deal with in my life generally, and I was always brought up not to stand up for myself.
Lately my thought have been going back to high school in the 80s when neither bullying nor mental problems were talked about. If it happened to you, basically you were a loser. That's the way it was. I didn't talk about this for years but it was all a poisonous seed at the bottom of my mind and being honest it's still there.
My thirty year high school reunion went by recently and I didn't go. There is no point trying to get fake apologies from people who didn't care then and probably wouldn't care now either.
I'm sorry to use this forum just to vent, but I feel like I need to. Rejection by friends isn't a subject that gets a lot of press and I feel like I'm the only one it's been a problem for.
Thanks for reading.
I just wanted to unload on this forum about an incident that had a far reaching effect in my life.
In high school when I was in year nine I got into a situation where I stood up for a couple of girls who were copping some racism and I got bullied for months over it. I would have survived this except that the two girls who I thought were my friends after a while began to call me stupid, boring and a dag (aussie slang for socially unrefined).
After a few months I managed to get away from them. But stupid and boring has been in my mind every single day for years and years, I heard it so often. It haunted me. The worst thing was that I felt I couldn't be really angry at them because they were stuck with hanging around this quiet serious girl they couldn't stand. Unlike with the mean girls kind of bullying I really don't feel that I can moralise with them too much over this. I wish however they knew the effect their behaviour has had on my life. I've had a bit of bullying to deal with in my life generally, and I was always brought up not to stand up for myself.
Lately my thought have been going back to high school in the 80s when neither bullying nor mental problems were talked about. If it happened to you, basically you were a loser. That's the way it was. I didn't talk about this for years but it was all a poisonous seed at the bottom of my mind and being honest it's still there.
My thirty year high school reunion went by recently and I didn't go. There is no point trying to get fake apologies from people who didn't care then and probably wouldn't care now either.
I'm sorry to use this forum just to vent, but I feel like I need to. Rejection by friends isn't a subject that gets a lot of press and I feel like I'm the only one it's been a problem for.
Thanks for reading.