i still live at home with people who are supposed to be my family. its such a big family(7 kids and 2 parents) but i feel so lonely and out of place. im the oldest and my younger siblings for some reason dont talk to me at all. my mother isnt different. she only talks to me if she's talking down to me or to give me orders- and im 20 now, not 14!!. and dad works full time and is never at home.
the worst the relationship i have with my sister- she's 16. and im 20. she never shows me any respect and she insists on turning all my other siblings against me. we cant be in the same room with a cat fight starting. im not too sure if i hate her because, really shes still my sister. i forgive her alot. but alot of times she makes me so angry i just want to kill her. its been like this between her and i for a long time as well. like 3 years. i have no idea why she hates me. but i cant take it anymore. things are so unconfortable that i cant talk to her and she cant even look me in the face or eyes anymore.
also i suffer from costochondritis and generalized anxiety. and its not easy living with them with these health conditions. i really feel trapped and lonely. sometimes i cant believe im related to them. two of the eldest kids(who also happen to be younger than me) rarely talk to me anymore either. we actually used to be close back when we were in high school. and i have no idea whats happened in my family. but i cant take it anymore! its making me sick, lonely and very angry. im feeling alot of rage and anger at home. i just wanna move out and never come back. but my mother doesnt approve of young single unmarried women living on their own.
help, please.
the worst the relationship i have with my sister- she's 16. and im 20. she never shows me any respect and she insists on turning all my other siblings against me. we cant be in the same room with a cat fight starting. im not too sure if i hate her because, really shes still my sister. i forgive her alot. but alot of times she makes me so angry i just want to kill her. its been like this between her and i for a long time as well. like 3 years. i have no idea why she hates me. but i cant take it anymore. things are so unconfortable that i cant talk to her and she cant even look me in the face or eyes anymore.
also i suffer from costochondritis and generalized anxiety. and its not easy living with them with these health conditions. i really feel trapped and lonely. sometimes i cant believe im related to them. two of the eldest kids(who also happen to be younger than me) rarely talk to me anymore either. we actually used to be close back when we were in high school. and i have no idea whats happened in my family. but i cant take it anymore! its making me sick, lonely and very angry. im feeling alot of rage and anger at home. i just wanna move out and never come back. but my mother doesnt approve of young single unmarried women living on their own.
help, please.