Augusto
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For a long time I feel that I'm lost in life; I'm 30, but I still can't find any real meaning in it, no matter what I d, what I try, explore, or experience. Even ore - I started to see the world as very grim place, with no real meaning, and with ordinary people using various substitutes, like religion, or patriotism, or love, or just some simple pleasures from watching soccer to having sex, to overcome this emptiness and get some stimuli.
And in such a word I see no place for myself. I don't like it much, don't truly associate myself with any nationality or country, don't have nobody to love, and generally wonder what am I supposed to do here. I'm really lost. I feel, like I'm convinced to live, if you understand it.
I tried to follow all recommendations which I found, but nothing works. Doing something that brings some small enjoyment right now doesn't change big picture. I failed to find goals which can be realistically achieved by a man and which interest me, and have little desire to get into battles which are lost from the beginning, had too much of those already.
Can't say I ever fit well into modern society, but the more I live, the more I feel detached from it. I wish I live 100 years before; everythign was muchc more simpel back then, people were much more community-oriented and it was a "personal" world, in contrast with modern atomized society of individualists, where majority has no interests but money. Honor, pride? Those are lost. Our civilizaton took the wrong way, thanks to liberal democracies. Sold honor for cash, well done.
I have no idea what else I can do about this all. But I'll be glad if somebody might have them, anything.
And in such a word I see no place for myself. I don't like it much, don't truly associate myself with any nationality or country, don't have nobody to love, and generally wonder what am I supposed to do here. I'm really lost. I feel, like I'm convinced to live, if you understand it.
I tried to follow all recommendations which I found, but nothing works. Doing something that brings some small enjoyment right now doesn't change big picture. I failed to find goals which can be realistically achieved by a man and which interest me, and have little desire to get into battles which are lost from the beginning, had too much of those already.
Can't say I ever fit well into modern society, but the more I live, the more I feel detached from it. I wish I live 100 years before; everythign was muchc more simpel back then, people were much more community-oriented and it was a "personal" world, in contrast with modern atomized society of individualists, where majority has no interests but money. Honor, pride? Those are lost. Our civilizaton took the wrong way, thanks to liberal democracies. Sold honor for cash, well done.
I have no idea what else I can do about this all. But I'll be glad if somebody might have them, anything.